Tuesday, February 24, 2009 @ 11:18 PM
2 more days to end exams.
Just wait.
i'm so in a great shit!
ARGH~
Thursday, February 12, 2009 @ 1:16 PM
Heya! back again....
need to upload the pics which i can't last few days i gueSs..
Hmmm..
and...Vday's coming~~
any dates?
LOL.
=)
At partyworld! =)
My belated belated belated for i think mths and yrs present. LOL.
But its nice and exquiste.
=)
A simple tot from xt
=)
Proposing?...nah...
He's up to no good.
especially the one behind!!!
LOL.
Ciao!~
Quiz in 1hour time!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009 @ 6:46 PM
I'm happy that i really had alot of great frens.
Almost all of them who are close to me are extremely great frens.
Even when i'm feeling low, u'll be suprised some frens that hardly talk to you,
actually did something amazing that help you tide thru.
They dun just talk but showed goodness and sincerly give help.
Seriously, i'm touched.
A simple action but it truly touched me.
And made me realised i have really great frens.
Those who i can hold my heart and say they are my fren.
So in return i wanna be a better person for myself.
And to them.
I'm trying my best now to be happy.
And it does feel great to be happy and not negative.
Special thanks to Xt and YL.
They show me wads being sincere all about.
YL prob the best person i ever met.
She's not perfect but she's a perfect fren to me.
She's not so great but she gained many respect from many.
And i believe she will be one who can recieved blessings and happiness.
At least i felt tad from her.
And Xt, i'm truly touched by her and felt she's an angel.
An angel that was bestowed to me when i felt i was lousy.
And she in turn gave blessings to others.
They are no fake, they both share the same triats.
Tad is using their purest heart treating people with sincerity.
Tads wad i learnt from them and trying to be too.
I'm glad and happy that i met everyone till this point.
They made me strong and realised myself.
Loves.
Thanks XY for the prezzie!! though its like so long ago! LOL.
happy~
damn blogger! i can't upload pics!!
Friday, February 6, 2009 @ 11:48 PM
OK...i really don't wanna go on my stupid rants anymore.
Cause i remember YL's words.
Tad is ultimatley its me thats more impt.
So why should i care about other ppl.
I should really think about myself more.
Self-cultivation is more impt, than bothering about wad others says.
Seriously i think i owe apologies to her. For wadever i've did to her.
No matter who started it or the purpose.
The thing is i did things that i shouldn't on my side.
No matter how many reasons and excuses i had.
Its still wrong.
So apologies is still needed.
And xueting was right.
Regardless who said sorry first doesn't matter.
Its the purpose of the apology.
I apologies becux i feel i did wrong afterall.
But doesn't meant i lost.
Its obvious that the other party was at wrong too.
But wadever it is, i dun have to expect anything in return nor apologies.
All i need to do is to forgive.
And stop being an angry person.
I really learned alot these days.
People who came up and talk to me after reading my post.
Xueting, Lifen, Liren and people whom supports me even they knew i'm at fault too.
They really knock senses out of me and taught me alot.
One doesn't have to have fancy words nor great ideals,
but having a great heart and personality is above all.
There are bound to be frictions between people.
Especially character bumps.
Afterall its how we handle it.
Well, afterall i'm not saint.
I still make mistakes afterall.
And i'm human enuff to feel affected and bothered.
Hurrays to me, i've walked out of the dark clouds.
*which i might never and keep blabbering and sulking on.*
ITS STILL A WORDY POST TODAY!
=p
Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 7:32 PM
I know whatever ppl have been saying bout me.
And seriously i need not explain about myself.
Ever realised i only treated you in tad way.
I can't helped it cux its been a long and tolerated anger.
And pls, i haven been telling tales about you..
Its wad i've felt, i said it out.
And if u were so bothered with wadever i've said,
why dun you clarify with them...
Instead of thinking i was talking behind your back.
Seriously they dun take sides. They know wads happenning,
And they did lecture me for wad i did too.
They are fair. I dun go around telling ppl.
Its they ask me.
get it striaght...
I'm not questioning about your actions nor am i criticising you actions.
Childish or mature so be it, the question had never revolved ard this topic.
Seriously wadever had caused this situation is becux of anger.
Its not only me. Stop dwelling on my side. And instead think about yourself.
Think of why you've gone wrong.
*I'm thinking too*
-sidetrack-
Another problem that occur.
Its my problem for not handling well.
I shouldn't put blames on others.
I should blame myself.
For not changing the storm that came.
I know not everyone is perfect.
I just dun care when i can't handle people i can't
I can't handle anger.
I can't handle myself.
Its me that i need to find.
I need to find my character.
Like catherine said, Build on it.
The search is on.
FIND KHOO FANG!
-side side track-
I admit, i confess,
i complained, i grumbled.
But these never really freed that anger.
I saw, i heard.
Things that were meant to be hidden from me.
They criticise, they laughed things all about me.
I cried, i wondered.
What did i do to deserves these.
Nothing came to answer my questions.
After some time,
He confessed to his wrongdoings.
but i already knew the truth.
I'm not angry nor am i depressed.
I smile, i forgive and i felt better.
How about the others?
I tried to dig the truth.
And nothing came out.
They are still hiding.
Maybe they forgot.
Though i din't get the answers,
I'm not angry.
Cux i now i know.
We are just ordinary humans.
We are afraid of truth, and we're afriad of telling the truth.
&
We just chose the easiest way out to release our anger,
dis-sactisfactory and irritations.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @ 9:10 PM
I'm back...after some emo posts...
Shall post something nice...
having some fruitful weeks recently.
Ever since i returned to work, i'm more lively.
Only when i hang out with frens of cux...
Home to me is my emo nest. Not tad i want it. But its a natural thing.
I need to be out with ppl, having fun. And not at home, i'll be depressed.
Anyway, have been hanging out with 3 main grps.
First is Pri sch frens!!
Oh my!!! We've been meeting frequently..haha...quite unexpected.
And i had fun at wen hui's hse for niu year! Really. Happy!!!
=)
Then with wanqing and kah hao!!
Except Zhiyao!!!
He seems busy recently...haven really met with him lor!!
Of cux including Kah hao's frens, boon and peiyi!~~
Have lots of fun with them!
Also celebrating niu year.!!
=)
Then with turf babies!
They are the 'always' lot cux we're always working mah!
So we caught a movie and had the Appreciation dinner recently..
I'm practically like a crazy child running about..
I had fun and am very happy!!
=) =)
But laughters and happiness dun last.
These few days i really enjoyed alot.
Too much, tad as if its holidays.
Once i hit sch, i can't lift my mood up.
I think i must been sulking almost all day.
Listless and showing attitude, tads prob wad u'll see me in sch.
SO AVOID THIS HORRBLE SPLIT CHARACTER CREATURE IN SCH!
I dun even have the mood to dress proper.
I go sch as if its my home. Yes yes...sloppy and auntie!
wadever it is,
I want to be free..
NO WAY! cux....exams coming, attachment coming, fun's ending!
=(
if you know, i've been showing attitude, you should really know why.
I've expressed myself and said a million times about you.
if you still dun get it, dun blame me for behaving that way.
And you should really watch your mouth.
I've been f****** tolerant for 1 and half yrs and i'm not gonna do tad anymore.
wadever u shoot off, pls think. You're no longer a 7yr old cute lil child.
You're a grown up, pls think wad are things you should say and wad you should not.
Being offensive to me is enough! i wun just sit and listen to you hurting me.
I tried to be nice to you. But the way you behave really pissed me off.
If its only me, i know its me. but if it happens to many ppl, i guess its you.
Many times i told you about talking rudely and offensive.
You just wun stop. You dun understand. i can't get things across.
You're just spoilt tads all. I admit i've stop trying towards you.
I shown wadever u've shown me. Its just my human reaction to protect myself.
Tads it. like i said, its like a mirror to show you exactly wad u done.
maybe ppl wun say, ppl wun do it. But i'm showing you. and hopefully u'll change to be a better person.
I really had enuff! i tried to avoid conflicts and it seems u wanted it. AND SO BE IT!
ARGGHHH~!
@ 12:26 AM
BLOGGING SOON!!!!!!!!
I PROMISE!
At partyworld! =)
