<body> <body>



Sunday, June 28, 2009 @ 12:55 AM

This is something i'm reluctant to talk about.
But I'm bothered with how people judge me.
Especially my family....

I just dun get it..
Why whatever or anything that i done is never right.
I'm always a rebellious, selfish and attitude fucker in their eyes.
Dun even wanna say if i ***, will they weep?
Cux i know for sure the ans is yes.
Only that i'm sure of.

Had a heated argument over the dinner on SAT last week with my mum.
Over money. I seriously dun get it, why i always had in mind of them,
but it seems never enough for them.
And i tot supporting myself in transport, food, leisure was already enuff.
Where they had to pay bills and my school fees was much easier.
I even did my own necessities.
Now they expect more from me.
Now i know why no matter how many aunties i knew that said i'm quite thoughtful is never considered a praise to me was becux i can't get my parents affirmation that i am.
I HATE THIS. REALLY! Bottom of my heart, this is why i'm started to look up to money. MONEY IS SO IMPT!


And this week, in fact JUST, with my brother.
Over his god damn it camera! everytime i quarrel over this issue, it makes me so so so SO much wanted to buy a god damn it camera and throw at him. And i wished i own one too!
I had the ability to buy one. But i can't bear the tot of wasting my money. YES, i'm selfish just like him.
Tads y our argument will never end. And everytime we quarrel, it just make me think of that incident, tad incident that makes me so much wanna cry everytime i think of it.
Till now, its so fresh on my mind. This whole life, i'll never forget those words and those things he did. NEVER!
And why do my SATs always ended up like this..
I hope i could moved out. Never in my life i felt so strongly about that.
Though i know the cons will be over the pros.
Anyway, i do not have a place or rather my corner in this house. I'm considered room-less.
To me, it does matters. It signify a holding in this house. And yes, i'm running away from this fucking family issue i do not want to face. Its draining me.


Maybe this whole fucking issues is about me.
I'm the one at fault.
I'm the one with attitude.
I'm the one who deserves all unfair treatment.
I'm the one who should move out.
I'm the one who should be more obedient.
I dunno what else i could do.
Maybe not talking, not being in this family, maybe that might do better for them.
Just be a tenant, i should be that. Cux i'm slowly feeling i'm not a member of this family anymore...........
I should be more selfish....
Please dun turn me into an unfeeling bastard.


Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 3:51 AM


I spent 3hours!
New work~
Post up so they can see morrow~!! =)


Thursday, June 25, 2009 @ 11:12 PM

I was thinking of my wish list recently...though its not christmas yet, but SANTA! i dun mind you droping any o these gifts down my chimney! (I'm sorry, window would be a better one. there's no chimney in my humble hse.)

I dun mind if u wanna give...
1) Bicycle!
2) A good bag that can be easily matched.
3) Money?
4) Wii!!
5) Kate Spade wallet or any tad i might like.
6) MONEY!
7) ankle guards.
8) Designed mahjong tiles.
9) Conversational Korean / Jap class
10 ) Dance / Singing lessons
11) IPOD touch
12) Hard-disk
13) A ROOM!

many more....Most imptly, i wish there was less sufferings in the world.
hmm...humans are never satisfied.




(Look at my red face! woots!! )

-Sidetrack-
I went running AGAIN.
Its been 3 weeks.
I dun think i've slimmed down.
SO, i'm gonna increase my excercise, decrease my intake.
Lets observe for another mth.
=)


(All the perspire, make me feel so shiok!)


(Dripping perspire, my arms din't seems to get any smaller!)


tata!~

Xiaolong, pls get smaller!! =(


Wednesday, June 24, 2009 @ 2:15 PM

In office now....

So tired that i wanna sleep~



Ystd had mahjong with ZY and WQ plus her sis's bf.
I LOST 20bucks!
sianx.......
Its becux of i nv win. The tiles i got was good..but just cannot win! sad la.
Its not about the money though.
=(

Anticipating for attachment to finish...............
I WANNA GO SHOP for the second time this week i've been saying!
=( =( =(

Bored so random post.


Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 9:43 AM

I want to go shopping so badly!
Its been like 3mths or more i went orchard shopping.
The last time i went there? IT WAS TO GET BEL's PRESENT!
I'm saving as much as i can for my bday, and travel trip to taiwan.
I also wanna save for my bank account too.
I want a lot of things.
Camera, wallet, bags, new style of clothings, and i want STRAIGHT HAIR!
And i wanna lose fats rather than what people call weight.
Now my calves and buttoks hurts from all the excercise i've been doing these 2 days.
Is it a good sign?
Hopefully i am cutting down my fats!
Ultimately, i will slim down somehow. It just takes time, determination, AND LESS of food i crave for!! LOL.

Recently i felt like getting a Kate Spade wallet. I know i can't afford, so i dun even bother to look at it. HA!
Slowly i will....One good thing i like about Kate Spade is their vibrant colour~
Any ideas where else can i get an affordable wallet but its nice too!
Singapore is too small and limited when it comes to designs. =(
Can't wait for jeremy to book out. HE's BOTAK! and dark...wonder how he looks like. LOL
And Terry can't drink so we have to change plans for his bday! SIANX.. There goes jeremy's plans!

Attachment is like another 2 months. So enjoy, relax and face the next big thag!
Woots.


@ 12:39 AM

Time to blog...

SOON I PROMISE.

New skin.


Monday, June 8, 2009 @ 12:47 AM

Happy bday to daddy. Love you daddy.
Though i dunno how much, or din't dare to say.
But thanks for all the hardships you've endured because of us.
I wish for health for you. Hopefully i can provide a better living for all of us in years to come.
PICS to come! stupid blogger..problems so much!


Profile.

Kyla Khoo
Short, simple, a girl.
OUTGOING

Music/videos


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Credits.

Layout: I
Fonts: I
Image: I
 Brushes: I II