A piece of me.

2011-12-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

I hate you...
But i hate myself for being like this more.

2011-11-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

What is love?
Strangely people around me have been falling in love.....except me.
I don't really wish i had a relationship badly but i definitely do not wanna end up alone too..
I can't explain what i fall for a person but there is no such person right now...
I wish i could meet this future you real soon...
I am really curious what kind of a guy would make me feel differently.
SHOW UP SOON OK! lol

2011-09-19T09:26:00.002+08:00

I can't explain this feeling.
I knew it but i cannot admit it.
I wished we could peek at the book that holds the future.

Lost

2011-07-24T10:48:00.001+08:00

Is there a morning you woke up and u felt lost?

yes. I did and i wonder why......

being indepent

2011-05-29T09:31:00.002+08:00

a morning that fills up with fatigue is really unpleasent.

but nonetheless there's always something else to balance off.

the quiet and lonliness somehow feels peaceful to me..

i just finished my duty, and making way home alone..

while i see my campmate having parent driving them home does somhow made me felt envious...

thinking back, i have nv made request for my dad to drove me home, regardless if he's driving or riding.

maybe knowing even if i did tad, results is the same.

at a young age, i was taught to be independent, not to rely on others and parent too much.

however, i think i was way independent..there are times tad u feel tired, and u needed a rest on someone's shoulder...

this is one of the days i feel really tired and felt on relying on someone...and yet the first thing i tot of is relying on myself...

is independence good or an excuse of saying you have no one else except urself?

vesak's day learnings

2011-05-17T15:48:00.003+08:00

its vesak day!

its calm cux the weathers' good,slight rain that cools off the highly elevated tempreture recently!

and a sudden tot came to mind...

some of us, no matter life posts how many problems and troubles, they could just laugh it off and handle it with a positive attitude.

however, majority of us complains,grumble and handle it with many negative thoughts...talking about this, i felt ashamed!! as i'm one of the majority!!!

we should embrace life as it is...

for everything that exsists, that happened and is going to happen, is a part of us, and it made us for who we are, as contented we are, as happy we'll be, as angry, grumpy and disastified we are, as empty we'll be..so love living, love life and love ourselves. give ourselves a chance to love and embrace life instead of depriving.

i'm learning to whine less, and view life as it is,embrace it, and be more contented. cux i wanna be happy.

so how about u?

what do u feel its life?

Party's over!

2011-05-09T12:32:00.003+08:00

Singaporeans, u have cast your votes..and its final.
Just 1 or 2 years ago, i heard a comment about young Singaporeans being complacency about Singapore.
Or rather, have the heck care attitude, does not even knows who is our ruling candidates.
And now, recently there is a huge uproar about george yeo, tinpeiling, nicole seah etc...
Look competition is good, it brings a sense of urgency,awareness and interest in everyone.
The Singapore now and years ago,compared to the last votings, has a vast difference.
People starts their campaign like its concerts, conducting rally talks like carnivals..
People are so much involved and interested with what opposition can "do" for us.

Personally, i felt that PAP has been ruling us so many years since it formed.
All of us, knows what they can do for us, and what they can offer us.
How about the opposition?
They can create a very beautiful world and lead u in but is that reality?
Are they reliable, trustworthy and how about their ability?
The stability of Singapore is possible today is bought to you by the government or opposition?

Voting is to entrusting these people to lead,guide and bring out the best of singapore and not forgetting of the interest of every level of Singaporeans.
But to what i know, some votes are casted because, the opposition speaks the grievances that you felt against PAP, probably they promise to bring you benefits that you like.

Please take note that complaining about prices rising is never going to end.
A country is constantly developing, and towards that, as a person, we should constantly develop ourselves to keep up with the world.
The world does not stop because you decided to stop.
Yes, i do agree that as the future generation of Singapore i am concerned about the highly priced properties.
And agreed that the policies that i have heard till now wasn't pleasing to and effective at all.
So, as oppositions instead of pointing out something that i already know or rather rising anger in what we commonly knew, please bring out better policies and realistic policies.

PAP has to secure their footings. i do not like to see my country's government made up of too many oppositions that does not focus on the country's well-being and only matters about the "battle" between "parties"
It will just turn out that everyone's focus in not on the country but picking out and pointing out each other "not so god policies", "ugly verbals fights".

We have to be clear that Singapore has developed to a point that the pace has been increased,and that we as individual has to pick up our pace and adapt to it instead of complaining. The government can guide,help and direct us, but not babysit,welfare and rule your life.

*sidetrack*
I, too agree that TPL doesn't seems as good compared to many others.
However, if she's already in, no use crying over split milk, just give her a chance to prove her worth in this coming five years, moreover, she did has a good mentor,leading hand to guide her along.
And to sacrifice 3ministers that includes our mighty George Yeo, Singaporeans in the Aljunied, i hope the votes does justice to what you all wants.
I sincerely hope that this trade-off is worth it.

Though the waves are gone, but the sea is not as calm as before.

questions that leads to more questions

2011-04-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

you realise in life, most of the time we had many questions...

questions that people can provide us ans...

questions that make us doubt ourselves..

questions that prob leads to no answers...

but it just keeps me thinking why, what and how did things happen that way but will nv get an anwer....

today i recieved a msg, informing me that a colleague had pass away...

he.....hung hinself...

i couldn't believe that a person who is humerous and always joking could seek death...

maybe everybody is just hiding behind their masks.

why can human be so vulnerable and seek death, while animals fought so hard for survival?

is there problems that can't be solved that death is the only way out?

2011-04-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

Can we not judge and can we not be affected by how people judge us?

the second page

2011-04-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we can take criticism...
but sometimes not..
the same goes for jokes...
so the question is :

When /where is the limit?

A partially matured me.

2011-04-20T22:37:00.004+08:00

its been awhile since i set "words" in here.

the popularity of fb's shoutouts and posts make me feel that i can't lose out and prob have a wider listerners out there in fb.

but also sincerly thanks to some people who constantly post "stories" and nonsensical stuffs that seriously well promote wad a blog is for....

(somehow just wish those idiots create the blog and stop any dumb comments in fb)

my attempt of this "reinstate" blog is intended to be an interective one. hopefully some nice passerbys leave some precious comments, craps abt questions i might ask.

today is the start of this revived blog!

question : can we not let anger get ahead of us?

Probably a start

2010-11-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

Its awhile.
But somehow rather than writing email to myself, blogging should be good.
I have learnt and grow somehow today.
I don't know when i look back at this post, i will know what i meant...
If i do, it goes to show, i really have learnt.
If i don't, i must be on a spur moment.

i dunno why

2010-06-14T02:27:00.002+08:00

i want to change..but without losing touch with myself.
How is tad possible when i tried for years.
I totally am a phony.

some thoughts

2010-06-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

Its easy to befriend a person.
Its easy to keep a person in your phone contacts.
Its easy to call a person a friend.

But..

Its not easy to understand a friend.
Its not easy to keep in touch with the person in your phone contacts.
Its not easy to be truly friends.

The closer we are to each other, we starts to doubt..
We doubt if they are true.
We doubt if they still likes us.
We doubt if they cheats.
We doubt if they betrays.
We doubt if we are still in their list.
Sometimes...
We just have to go with the flow.
We just have to believe.
We just have to have faith.
We just have to have fun.
Its just tad simple.

When in doubt...
Ask. (tads wad my principle taught me)

Maybe it does not help to solve big problems.
Maybe you won't get the answer tad you want.
Maybe you won't be satisfied.
But it sure makes you lessen your doubts.

What i have i cherish.
What i don't have i work for it.
For things i could not get, i dream of it.
For things i can achieved, i go for it.
Enjoy every moment you have, even with regrets, life is still beautiful.
Love Life.

Khoo Fang =)

Love hurts

2010-05-30T01:53:00.002+08:00

Love has no explainations.
Feeling has no explanations.
Love has no answers.
That's why we fall in love, to search for these answers.

Feel happy from love.
Don't feel strained.
If both of your hands are full, you'll never be able to hold on to other things.

something is changing

2010-05-25T22:57:00.002+08:00

Over the years, things have changed.
Some things are better left unchanged.
But. i want a change.

Many countless of advices.
Many doubts.
But i still decided to follow my initial plans.
Even if i were to regret, i will do it.
Its because i want to limit myself,
So i can see if i can change.

I believe.

home sweet home

2010-04-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

Its a long way home.....
But i am finally back in Singapore!
More details coming right up!
(sorting the gifts!)

the worst of taiwan trip

2010-04-14T09:45:00.003+08:00

If anybody is reading this......

I'm stuck at taiwan..
Because the bus delayed my flight, i could not go back in time.
Now, i have to wait till 19th to go back Singapore.
We have to stay at the hotel the bus company arranged which is out of the way..
We gave up waiting for free slots to go back before 19..
We decided to spend quality time in the next few days...
This is all my fucking fault...
I wanted to save for my family and frens...
And yet, they spent more...
I should just listen to my dad arrangements and take cabs instead of the bus.
All this guilt that is building up, i don't even know how to redeem for it.
I'm so ignorant and tiny....
I should just stayed in Singapore.
Fuck it.

LOVE

2010-04-06T00:51:00.003+08:00

It just makes me wonder and ponder, What is love?
Is love something that warms your heart?
Is love something that makes you smile unknowingly?
Is love something that brings laughters and cries, yet you are hopelessly addicted to it?
Is love something that makes your heart goes thump thump thump?
Is love something that is all wonderful?

What about......

When love becomes a burden....
Is it still love?
When one grew tired of love....
Do one still love?
When love comes to a limit....
Do we still continue?
When love becomes suffocating...
Do one still feel loved?
So, is love a torture?

Love sure is complicated and confusing.
It makes a person feel strong but weak too.
But, LOVE HAVE NO ANSWERS, my friends.
Therefore we're all searching for love like we're searching for answers.

But, never force love.
Forced love give adverse effects.
And may sour the friendship you once had.
So, to one of my friend (M) : The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.

Renewal

2010-04-05T01:10:00.004+08:00

Finally, i gave up on the music for the blog.
But, i'm happy my blog is back.

Sometimes, casual small talks between friends, can make me realise some feelings and thoughts in life. They might and might not bear their hearts out to you. However, from the converstaion, you can feel and sense their sincerity talking to you. Some, regardless how much grumbles and comments you've made, they will still listen and gives assurance. Some, will just entertain and can't be bothered, some, pretend to hear you out and some, they'll just smile and indicate.."YOU SHOULD STOP!"
Whatever it is, they are still willing to listen and spend those time with you. Tads very commendable.

Anyway, i've been very fortunate to meet many friends of mine.
But i should learn to appreciate things more and grumble less.
Its not easy, cux i'm khoo fang.

*anyways, welcome back my blog!
CHeers~

some thoughts

2009-12-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile (2mths) since i update...

I think i've been ignoring this little space i once had.

Anyway, nothing much have been going on..

Just tad common test is coming soon ( tomorrow)

And alot of undone projects.

Wished i could just slack it off.

In any case, i've been studying, but wondering what the questions are gonna turn out.

So in conclusion, i've been clueless and studying un-smart.

Ok.. boring post before i sleep.

I want my holidays!!

(p.s. and more money~)

Christmas is coming..

Birthdays are coming....

C.New year shopping is coming..

Air tickets payment is coming...

Khoo fang is so BROKE!

any kind hearted charitable organisation or individual wishes to donate to " Save khoo fang life's donations", pls feel free to contact her at her number! any amount is accepted, plus meals and items too.

just JOKING.

Another update.

2009-10-29T12:56:00.002+08:00

See...i was gone like so long that i din't even know what i should blog about.

Anyways, school has started and it shucks...

I can't shift myself back to school..

My time sort of stopped, at the holidays.

Haix...

I seems to have lots of things to do. yet i dunno what they are..

Sounds dumb isn't it?

And! I'm in class while blogging this!!!

I WANT A KITE FLYING SESSION SOON!!!!!!!!!!!

After birth.day.part 1

2009-10-05T04:41:00.004+08:00

Its over.
My feelings for it seems like a river that just flow by the river bed.
It was like a student preparing to present himself or herself in front of the school.
Like the ugly daughter-in law waiting to see the mother-in law...

I guessed i was just afraid. Afraid of things that goes wrong.
I'm so sorry to my close frens...that i din't manage to talk to......
So sorry that i din't serve them well,
So sorry that i messed things up,
So sorry for not apologising and expressing my gratitude well.
I was sorry for crying for i dunno wad to do with those mixed emotions.
Despite all the SORRIES.

I was really happy.
Happy to receive the blessings of my family and frens.
Happy that they gave me a memorable birthday,
Happy that even there's no food, all they want is coming down and wish me a happy birthday.
And the best present i recieved, is happiness.
I felt the happiness from them and therefore i'm happy.
I may not have the best way to say it, nor do i have the best words to express it.
All i could say is.....
I have the best friends in the world!!!!!!!!!!!
&

A big THANK YOU!
Loves all of you.....
I'm glad its all over..
Guess that for one person to change, is by influence.
-Changing in process-
=)

Its so near.

2009-09-29T00:11:00.002+08:00

ITS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't ask me wad i want!!

I like presents to be unwrapped!

And not unwrapped presents!

HAHAHA!

Its the joy when i see people attending my bday to be happy!

Hopefully........

though some are forced to come!

Primary school gang, dun make me disappointed..though it might be! lol...

looking forward.........................=)

2009-09-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

Birthday Party in progression!

Please kindly donate...LOL!

joking la!

Please enjoy the lame stuffs i planned on that day...

And clean up the food!

Plus, come with a sincere heart with good wishes.

Its coming!!

Sianzation

2009-09-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

my blog's been real dead for months. (I guess)
i have so many updates to be done but.......
gonna settle my birthday first.

I kinda regret having a party.
If i knew, i would just leave it..
i am still very messed up with the guest list.
Wednesday i will call everyone 1 by 1........
wish my luck, hopefully my party goes well..
And bye. For now.

SADED and Disappointed.

blogger sucks hell lot!

2009-08-28T03:52:00.000+08:00

Fvking blogger...
its been soOOOoo many weeks and its not fixed yet!
Anyway, just wanna say i screwed up at the bootcamp training 3!
I actually can pass yet i made a stupid mistake, and now i have to go back.
IT sucks!

=(
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ARGH!

2009-08-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

DAMN BLOGGER!!!

LAst day

2009-08-15T01:35:00.004+08:00

Nothing else matters if you do not have health. =)

Tads wad i felt after being a local supporter of NEO's Film!
Haiya, i watched scare till laugh ( direct translate)
This is the first time, i cannot decide to laugh or to be afraid. Seriously i felt both!
Trust me! you would never experience tad stupid feeling like i felt!
HA! not too bad for a local production la.

ANyways! Tads not the point!
The point is today is...........................
THE LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT!
HAHAHHAHAHAA!~
I am happy cux i can sleep like pig, and roll on my parent's bed like nobody business!

No more time sheet!
No more SHITWORK!
No more dozing off!
No more boring reports!
HURRAY is the only thing i felt like shouting now!
But, thinking back of the times, makes me sad.
What i hate most, is saying goodbyes....
It makes me feel like forcing me to leave a stage to another...
Its all too systematic..

I miss the fun at attachment with the colleagues there..
Really...actually i kinda miss Mr Ong too..
He's really a great Supervisor..i am really grateful to him.
And yaonan, though we always bicker, but these 6 months makes me feel like i had another brother...LOL..though he's a meanie!
Shuna too...she's so nice, and easy to talk with...
Carol... See...i told u..i'm missing the times...

Luckily i still have the photos~
These will walk down in life with me!
Though its a simple farewell, but i'm happy we spent the time well!
Thanks peeps..alot!
Misses. =(

Its not love.

2009-08-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

Cux:
I'm not hopeful.
My heart is not pumping crazy.
My blood's not rushing.
I know its not love.

Love is a luxury to me.
Life is perfectly alright.
I'm not desiring it.
Cux i know.

Its not here yet.
He's not here yet.

=)
randoms~

I wish it end soon.

2009-07-31T11:14:00.004+08:00

Days ago, i was still thinking of probing a request to extend. But, now, i wished it end real soon.

I am way so frastrauted that i can't focus on my work but instead on my anger.
Fvcking adults that are so irresponsible to their work.
Though i'm just a IA student, but i've been working at the age of 16.
I know exactly what are things within my job scope, and what are not.
When they messed up their bloody shit, they expect someone else to clean it up for them.
What a clever move to push the Fvcking workload to others.
I feel like your mouth is made up of excuses, your brain is meant to rot.
Laziness should just end your job. I wished your childrens know how you worked and look down that they had such an irresponsible, and lazy father! I meant it!
YOU SUCKS HELL LOT!

Another one, rude, no manners and had a really bad attitude.
I hate guys like him. No respect to others, thinking that only those superior than him deserves the respect.
Well, don't expect me to give you a good attitude then.
Cux you just don;t deserve it.
You think the world consist of only you.
And dis- trust people who worked with you, then you should do everything yourself.
Don't expect others to help you then.
I'm not being selfish! I just think that if everyone just do their part, things wouldn't end up like this.
Look at the bloody fvcking mess now.
i'm not going to care. CUx i hate mess!
And don't expect me to do it happily.
Cux it sucks to clean bloody shit!

SO angry with this Fvcking people!
I just can't put on a pretentious smile and face these irritating adults.
I hope these 2 weeks end well.
Never want to see these people ever again!
=(

Once again and again and again.

2009-07-21T00:51:00.004+08:00

I re - bonded my hair again...Seriously i'm getting sick of it. =(
(i combed my hair to the extreme left. tads y!)
Boos. =(

I ended the post earlier till i went to see txy's blog!!!!!
I admit, i am fickle. I wanted a canon camera and now i don't!
i want a LUMIX just like hers!!
Semi pro cam!
I saw it for myself, the pictures are so great!!!
And i want a Polaroid cam!

THEY ARE ON MY SO WANTED LIST!
looks like kf's gonna have a hard time saving, AGAIN!
=)

So happy today..yet.

2009-07-09T00:17:00.007+08:00

Today i was really happy till  just now...=(

I got a wallet unexpectedly ystd!
I wanted one sice quite a few months back...
I saw one i liked so much at tough jeans smith. Yet i missed the chance to get it.
CUX ITS OFF THE RACK!
And i was searching for a new one..
Unexpectedly, i saw a good deal ystd!
And i got it! I dun really fancy it at first. BUT the more i see it,the more i love it! =)

Its simple, but its my cup of tea. LOVES! now my notes is wrinkles no more~

Then today at work, Mr Ong, my attachment supervisor, bought me a muffin!
Its a miracle muffin, it made me day!
Cux its as if there's ecstasy...it made me so happy, i can't stop smiling! lol..
And i guarantee its nice..different from other muffins i tried. Happy~

But my day ended with =(

I'll work doubly hard.....i promise.

Take things for a change

2009-07-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

I finally finish my report!!!!

No more sleepless or disrupted nights!

FEEL SO MUCH LIGHTER, in my heart.

Not weight though. =(

Emo once again

2009-06-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

This is something i'm reluctant to talk about.
But I'm bothered with how people judge me.
Especially my family....

I just dun get it..
Why whatever or anything that i done is never right.
I'm always a rebellious, selfish and attitude fucker in their eyes.
Dun even wanna say if i ***, will they weep?
Cux i know for sure the ans is yes.
Only that i'm sure of.

Had a heated argument over the dinner on SAT last week with my mum.
Over money. I seriously dun get it, why i always had in mind of them,
but it seems never enough for them.
And i tot supporting myself in transport, food, leisure was already enuff.
Where they had to pay bills and my school fees was much easier.
I even did my own necessities.
Now they expect more from me.
Now i know why no matter how many aunties i knew that said i'm quite thoughtful is never considered a praise to me was becux i can't get my parents affirmation that i am.
I HATE THIS. REALLY! Bottom of my heart, this is why i'm started to look up to money. MONEY IS SO IMPT!

And this week, in fact JUST, with my brother.
Over his god damn it camera! everytime i quarrel over this issue, it makes me so so so SO much wanted to buy a god damn it camera and throw at him. And i wished i own one too!
I had the ability to buy one. But i can't bear the tot of wasting my money. YES, i'm selfish just like him.
Tads y our argument will never end. And everytime we quarrel, it just make me think of that incident, tad incident that makes me so much wanna cry everytime i think of it.
Till now, its so fresh on my mind. This whole life, i'll never forget those words and those things he did. NEVER!
And why do my SATs always ended up like this..
I hope i could moved out. Never in my life i felt so strongly about that.
Though i know the cons will be over the pros.
Anyway, i do not have a place or rather my corner in this house. I'm considered room-less.
To me, it does matters. It signify a holding in this house. And yes, i'm running away from this fucking family issue i do not want to face. Its draining me.

Maybe this whole fucking issues is about me.
I'm the one at fault.
I'm the one with attitude.
I'm the one who deserves all unfair treatment.
I'm the one who should move out.
I'm the one who should be more obedient.
I dunno what else i could do.
Maybe not talking, not being in this family, maybe that might do better for them.
Just be a tenant, i should be that. Cux i'm slowly feeling i'm not a member of this family anymore...........
I should be more selfish....
Please dun turn me into an unfeeling bastard.

my new work.

2009-06-26T03:51:00.001+08:00

I spent 3hours!
New work~
Post up so they can see morrow~!! =)

Keeping up the good work!

2009-06-25T23:12:00.004+08:00

I was thinking of my wish list recently...though its not christmas yet, but SANTA! i dun mind you droping any o these gifts down my chimney! (I'm sorry, window would be a better one. there's no chimney in my humble hse.)

I dun mind if u wanna give...
1) Bicycle!
2) A good bag that can be easily matched.
3) Money?
4) Wii!!
5) Kate Spade wallet or any tad i might like.
6) MONEY!
7) ankle guards.
8) Designed mahjong tiles.
9) Conversational Korean / Jap class
10 ) Dance / Singing lessons
11) IPOD touch
12) Hard-disk
13) A ROOM!

many more....Most imptly, i wish there was less sufferings in the world.
hmm...humans are never satisfied.

(Look at my red face! woots!! )

-Sidetrack-
I went running AGAIN.
Its been 3 weeks.
I dun think i've slimmed down.
SO, i'm gonna increase my excercise, decrease my intake.
Lets observe for another mth.
=)

(All the perspire, make me feel so shiok!)

(Dripping perspire, my arms din't seems to get any smaller!)

tata!~

Xiaolong, pls get smaller!! =(

TIRED

2009-06-24T14:15:00.002+08:00

In office now....

So tired that i wanna sleep~

Ystd had mahjong with ZY and WQ plus her sis's bf.
I LOST 20bucks!
sianx.......
Its becux of i nv win. The tiles i got was good..but just cannot win! sad la.
Its not about the money though.
=(

Anticipating for attachment to finish...............
I WANNA GO SHOP for the second time this week i've been saying!
=( =( =(

Bored so random post.

Grumbles

2009-06-23T09:43:00.005+08:00

I want to go shopping so badly!
Its been like 3mths or more i went orchard shopping.
The last time i went there? IT WAS TO GET BEL's PRESENT!
I'm saving as much as i can for my bday, and travel trip to taiwan.
I also wanna save for my bank account too.
I want a lot of things.
Camera, wallet, bags, new style of clothings, and i want STRAIGHT HAIR!
And i wanna lose fats rather than what people call weight.
Now my calves and buttoks hurts from all the excercise i've been doing these 2 days.
Is it a good sign?
Hopefully i am cutting down my fats!
Ultimately, i will slim down somehow. It just takes time, determination, AND LESS of food i crave for!! LOL.

Recently i felt like getting a Kate Spade wallet. I know i can't afford, so i dun even bother to look at it. HA!
Slowly i will....One good thing i like about Kate Spade is their vibrant colour~
Any ideas where else can i get an affordable wallet but its nice too!
Singapore is too small and limited when it comes to designs. =(
Can't wait for jeremy to book out. HE's BOTAK! and dark...wonder how he looks like. LOL
And Terry can't drink so we have to change plans for his bday! SIANX.. There goes jeremy's plans!

Attachment is like another 2 months. So enjoy, relax and face the next big thag!
Woots.

new skin!

2009-06-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

Time to blog...

SOON I PROMISE.

New skin.

Daddy's bday.

2009-06-08T00:47:00.002+08:00

Happy bday to daddy. Love you daddy.
Though i dunno how much, or din't dare to say.
But thanks for all the hardships you've endured because of us.
I wish for health for you. Hopefully i can provide a better living for all of us in years to come.
PICS to come! stupid blogger..problems so much!

Determination

2009-05-29T00:15:00.004+08:00

All the great talks about slimming down,
and now, i am doing it..
Have i drop kilos?
Can't say for sure since its only been a week.

I really hate running but since i have no money for herbalife, (which indeed is the fast and efficient way)
Running is the best slimming 'product' i can trust now.
I adjusted my diet and now i can feel my metabolism rate has increased.
Hope i can motivate yanling and lichun.
My aim is to acheive:
-JC legs (cux jc girls always have the best slim legs.)
-caterpillar arms. (cux i dun wan butterfly arms!)
-Flat tummy toned ones of cux!
Not easy... but i will try my best.
Target date is qing bday!!
=)

And wasted 150 for this shoe (in diff colour!) if only there this colour! for running lor.
In the end i bought the size too big. by 1size or .5
I dun even know my exact shoe size. shame on me!

If i got these legs just by running, i forgice those shoe. HAHA
ok..DOzing off already!
cya on the next entry~

Working hard

2009-05-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'm working hard to slim., so... Best of luck fang.

Qing bday preparation~

2009-05-19T23:25:00.004+08:00

OMG! another 2 mths it'll be qing's 21st!
My job now is to,
1st- Find a suitable present for her!!
2nd- SLIM DWN hell lots!!!
3rd- Find a suitable sun dress/ boho dress for her bday!

And..................

i saw a few on Victoria's secret...Which i think suits qing dear.
Then i pick simple ones but suitable with my SHAPE and sizes ones..
BUT! i haven decided to buy..there are more options out there! Excited for her bday!

Upcoming is Kah hao's 21st! Since there's no theme, no need to worry~~
Just go there simple, and gamble! (it rhymes haha!)
Cus he said, " just come eat and gamble, plus drink!)

Then is our hello kitty princess bday next.........
Hopefully her theme wun be hello kitty or pink!
I can't take it....LOL..
BUT ultimate goal is to SLIM!!
Saving real hard for my bday too! LOL.

The first 2 are the ones that i think that is more suitable for me!
Just in case i can't get better ones.............=)
After these 2, are the ones i felt it might suit qing dear`

*hmph..why caucasians always have the built and features..neknek

A day of appreciation.

2009-05-16T01:09:00.003+08:00

I had to say....
Many thanks to people whom help alot, and those who made contribution here and there.

Firstly,
- The driver of bbq wholesales. (Who waited for quite some time...)
Then follows,
- Junyong & Weijun ( For all the help on things i had blundered.)
- Lichun! (For her accompany, and who did many things, 幕后）
- Kelvin & Hweeying （ helping out in coming early, especially thanks for insect repellant!)
- HENRY!! ( Thanks for his drive, fanning, chef work~)
- Jeremy and sherry ( for high level of tolerance though don't like bbq)
- Melissa, eugene, TK ( All the alliance and tolerance)
- Zhihong, joyce ( coming dwn, fanning bbq)
- Melvin ( Helping out, water bombs, and coming dwn)
- Terry ( Participation, Driver, carrier.)
-YANLING ( cakes, help to eat...help to eat and help to eat. ok la water bombs too.)
- Last but not least, those who had the sincerity to share the amount of money, wish to come but couldn't make it....THANKS so much too...

Appreciated. especially those who perspire alot for this bbq. =)
In order to compenstate for the waste of food, i'm not eating solid food for a week.
Which means i will take in soup, or liquid form, jelly form...whatsoever. =)

And now...........
Sorry for not attending place that i should be....
regardless,
cinema and party.
But i really appreciate the understanding all of you had.

I think i had serious burnt for my tongue!
So pain....
TATA.. updates detailed entry next time.
Misses.

Happy MUM's day~

2009-05-10T01:20:00.003+08:00

Its a mummy day today~

I would really like to thanks my mum from the deepest and bottom of my heart.
Thanks for having me in this world, thanks for bringing me up, thanks for not abusing or do all sorts of nonsense that a parent shouldn't.

And having a family is all i should be thankful for.

I might grumble and whine, about things that all other kids had that i don't, or the favourtism that u always shown towards bro, but i still know that u love me as a child.

I've always been rude, rebellious and even throw my temper around, but i'm gladful that this day i can redeem myself, though its only like 1/4 of redemtion! I ___ you mummy.

(I'm an conservative asian! argh!! still will feel mushy to say those stuffs!! lol)

I realised that the world hardest job is being a parent or even being a mum.
First you risk having your body shape changed.

Then you slowly turn into a haggard old lady.

The next thing you know, you become so naggy.

And eventually you become grouchy.

So for all the hardwork, if once in awhile, we, as childrens, especially on these occasion.

show some of our appreciation, i know from their bottom of their heart, though they might not be very happy, but they surely felt appreciated for being a MUM!

-My mum's reward-

I can't say i did alot for my mum, but i did wanna spend some quality time having her fav cusine with her. I know giving her a gift is not better than having some quality time tgt.

So we at first wanted to have buffet at kushin-bo..but our timing was off. So we went to ichiban.

Though very inexpensive, but, she had enjoyed the food there. Which is more than what money can measured. I'm happy that the day spent is worthwhile, though i'm sick.

A happy mom.

TATA~

saw the change

2009-05-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

Changed. Updates soon.

Time for a change.

2009-05-06T01:42:00.002+08:00

Dun be suprised that i update my blog!

I know its been a little dusty in here,that spiders are making themselves comfortable.

Soon, i'll set a fire to do some cleaning up!

I wanna change my blogskin! FOR A CHANGEEee!!

If i get bored with my blog, won't you too?

neks!

Ugly truths

2009-04-23T13:52:00.002+08:00

These are things we might never know till its spoken...
When you were fed with the truth then you'll realized,
That actually, growing up as an adult is not that glamorous at all...
Maybe the darkest truth is to hide your inner thoughts...
Those you wished people do not know your ugly truths, yet you wanted to put it across.
I didn't know its such a twist of fate. It seems like a normal family to me..
Yet so much ugly truths hidden but not to be brought up.
I wished to grow up as a decent adult not like them....
Which is why wealth is really important to me.
I wanna be successful not for others.
But for me.

It's been so long...

2009-04-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

I missed my blog...

Where i can shout and vent,

Weep and shatter,

Share and laugh.

Now that i'm back, its gonna get real wordy.

I really wonder how many read blogs,

People's life and stories, woes and happiness.

Many blog for leisure, some, blog for their problems.

I dunno which i fall into,

But it does feel better after blogging.

Its like a friend, I might ignore or rather forgotten its existence.

But after a long while, you'll realised you need it.

Like friends too.

When you feel tired, friends like a shelter. Providing the basic needs.

And family's like religion giving you supports.

So this is for my friends.

Dedicated to all of you.

I love the existance of all of you,

that made my life wonderful.

A deep thnak you for the comforting short rests.

Though i've been nasty at times. But i really don't mean it.

So with loves and gratitude.

THANKYOU.

-sidetrack-

Today at work, i was really fed up.

I'm facing deadline for my report, which i'm still stuck at week 2!!

But tasks keep coming in!!

Not from my supervisor but someone whom i'm not under.

I have my own things to do.

500 hundred is my pay.

From ST not from you.

A few times i can help you.

But now its like forever.

Giving excuses, for me to do your work is totally TOTALLY not a reason why i should do your DAMN SHIT WORK!

I'm tolerating. But to certain limits!

not anymore i'm gonna take YOUR DAMN SHIT CRAPS.

I'm here to learn but not doing your job!

if you think as an IA i'm easy to bully. I'm not.

One more time i hear your freaking shit.

I'm serious i'm gonna speak my truth.

I'm not a timid girl who just sits there to be judge and order around.

I only take orders whom i should take.

DEFINITELY NOT YOU!

I'm not a runner, courier neither am i your assistant.

SO HELL YA. no more tolerance!

Peace out.

I'm just an ordinary human.

I'm august?

2009-03-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

What does your birthday say about you?

The result is August

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

Seems quite true eh..

lol.

The ultimate experience!!!

2009-03-29T03:27:00.002+08:00

Now its 3.35am!!
And I'm really excited that i can't get to sleep!
Cux i just challenged myself to an ultimate experience!! LOL!!
Guess wad....
After the first free ride i got from the flyers, the next that i got was the SWING at GMAX!!
We're lucky cux the staffs there were really nice!!
So we got 5 free seats for the SWING!
It was a hard time to ask kelvin to get up..
Though i was really scared, if its free then why not..

1) My legs are shaking.
2) I verbally vomit!
3) I can't stop laughing (when i'm extremely afraid i do that)
4) There i was at the top!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5) OMFG! ITS GREEN LIGHT!
6) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH hahhahahhahhahhahahha!!
7) kallang wave!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
8)Relax..enjoy the wind...
9) YES! i'm safe!
10) SUPERB!

thats wad i feel after the ride.
The process of it is really indescribable!
But I'm happy i spent my saturday worthwhile!

We actually celebrated LC and Junyong's Bday together...
Had our scrumptious dinner at CHANGING APPETITE!
The food is GREAT!, THE STAFF! SUPERB..though they were a lil shorthanded!!!
Then we had 2 huge ballons for each of them! (though junyong's inflated n the later part! =[ )
AND after dinner, we had our....MINI AMAZING BDAY RACE!!
They are given clues like in the amazing race!!
So all clues ans lead to a place!

CLUES (can u guess it?)
1st destination) 1, 18, 3, 1, 4 , E
2nd) Spinach
3rd) alchohol, lights, babes, music and food!
4th) AHHHHhhhhhhhhh!
5th) let's "GAN PEI"

1-ARCADE the number belongs to the number letter of the alphabet.
2-Popye's at flyer
3-Clarke quay
4th- GMAX
5th CHEERS translate gan pei into english...of cux we wrote it in chinese!!

TO know more what happened, stay tune till i blog again the 2nd part with pics!!!!!
AND of cux...
I'm happy to celebrated their bday and they enjoyed every bit of it!
=)
Till then....
tata~

(I'm guilty of someone's bday so i should really make it up someday!~ hees..)

2009-03-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

YOOHHOOOO~~!!!

Guess wad Xy's is boss of her own..(for now)

LOL..

till she find wad she really wanna do..

But....before she do!

VISIT her lovely webby for great apperals.

SUPPORT SUPPORT yeah!~~

http://voilamour.livejournal.com/

WAD ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!!

go go go!!

-stay in my heart-

dunno why.

2009-03-24T21:52:00.001+08:00

I dunno why i'm feeling like tad..

But..

i'll keep searching till i find you.

4th and a half day of attachment.

2009-03-12T01:46:00.002+08:00

I know its sounds boring...

but...

i still wanna do it!

ATTACHMENT!!!!

Attachment has commerce for 4 days already!

And today the best fun thing i did was filing!

ARGH! its too boring..give me work!

HAHHA... i must be jian gu tou...must slog hard then can.

and the time is 2am.. i only have 4 hours to sleep?

and yeah..see how much i love you blogspot.

i came to update even i'm tad tired!

actually....i forgot wad i wanna blog..haix..see i'm really tired...

then morrow shall update again.....

bring more colours to me.

5mths 4days.

The cold like crazy day!

2009-03-09T21:42:00.003+08:00

9th March- First day of attachment.
What awaiting us was a breezy morning.
Hell ya! Nope, its not beezy at all.

ITS COLD!

Down right to my spine!

Crazy weather to mark the 1st day of attachment!

Anyway, today is briefing after briefing and still briefing.

For the 1st day.

I almost slept.

Then guess wad i was elated cux my pay was 500!

It was wad i wished for.

BUT! it does comes with a price....

My working hours are from...830 to 6pm!

Ya! gonna be late for wed and fri for turfclub..=(

I might not even make it to work at times!!

and tads a double =(

-brief updates

I was posted to TBU = transport business unit in ST electronics of cux.

I'm rather proud to make it in the company, cux i found out its a really good company.

but anyways...

i was posted to a project or rather, a contract named C960.

Which is the future MRT LINES thats coming up!

The project sounds interesting yet...DRY!

i can fall asleep cux its quite boring to stay in office,

reading the theory parts!

HAHA...and i'm going to the new station called pomengrate?(work site) on fri..

Its gonna be a eye-opener to me!

Looking forward to my participation in the next 5mths.

Though i'm working alone like all the others, but 5mths will pass very quickly...isn't it?

AJA!

Oh ya...nth to do so i browse thru my photos and did some alterations.

I know its very zilian but I DUN CARE!

i miss my cuzzies lar!

after attachment i swear will bring them out to play~~

till then.

5mths 6days left.

Gimme more time..

2009-03-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

Attachment's coming!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!

So take a look of me again.

Cux i'll be missing for quite some time~!

LOL..

see ya~

What do ya know!

2009-03-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

HEYO!

1 day of briefing,

2days of endless sleep.

3days mahjong.

All these is bringing me down.

I can feel that i'm getting sick real soon!

Ystd i went for netball's chalat!

haha nice chicken wings, nice people, nice feelings.

We had great laughs and talks. Though its only for a day that i stayed,

i really enjoyed and thanks the people for the fun.

there's only 1 thing thats real bad!

which is....SLEEP...haha...anyway, i had a good position compared to many others.

Poor mj, had to squeeze with me. I'm so sorry.....=(

And i met up with qing and boon!!!

HAHA...soem great stuffs coming up..

about bday plannings...

truly hope holidays are longer..

till then.

stay ard for updates!

Another Day.

2009-03-01T01:44:00.004+08:00

HEY! Its me! Sounds so yanling...

HAHA..

ANyway, you've seen updates, which means.....

EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats probably my fav sentence of my life~

HA!

I flare for my emd..i guess.. at 'most' 72marks.

And Ecam...just pray hard i pass the paper orites.

Com'on pray for me!

So now! i got 1 week to? ATTACHMENT.

Say, how should i use my time.

The ans is dun have to plan...cux!

It already full!

Monday- briefing fior attachment, the mahjong, then head dwn to chalat.

Tuesday-Chalat till afternoon, meet qing and boon for peiyi's present.

Wednesday-shopping then work then py bday party!

Thurs- meeting Xy gina and prob huiwen they all for lunch, hopefully, then partyworld with turf babies, then mahjong with qing.

Friday-Porb lunch with parents or vanessa then work!!

Sat-Work then hopefully mahjong or partyworld with kah hao bel zy and qing.

Sunday work! then rest?

and here comes attachment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEE! its full-ed!

In any case, i wanna play. cux it makes me a happier girl.

now what i need is either, a sugar daddy, Bf or fairy godmother...

to grant me....

DIGI CAM,

Poloroid cam,

Wii,

wallet,

New clothings,

Bicycle,

Herbal life,

Facials,

skin treatments

and....

BED BUGS OUT OF MY SIGHT!

Hees...enjoy people...cux its holiday~!!!

p.s, at least for a week it is holiday.

And a temp farewell to Jiahao didi and terry asshole.

Off they go to china for attachment 2 mths.

With air ride, train ride, snow, and cheena languages.LOL.

And me......

yio chu kang 6mths.

Hopefully they dun bring back cheena chiang back!

seeya. more updates~~

i alomost forgot.

I got my 200bucks from GOV!

which means i'm 21 and i'm getting old!

Tata``

doomed!

2009-02-24T23:18:00.001+08:00

2 more days to end exams.

Just wait.

i'm so in a great shit!

ARGH~

PICS...

2009-02-12T13:16:00.006+08:00

Heya! back again....
need to upload the pics which i can't last few days i gueSs..
Hmmm..
and...Vday's coming~~
any dates?
LOL.
=) At partyworld! =)

My belated belated belated for i think mths and yrs present. LOL.
But its nice and exquiste.
=)

A simple tot from xt
=)

Proposing?...nah...

He's up to no good.

especially the one behind!!!

LOL.

Ciao!~

Quiz in 1hour time!

Heartfelt

2009-02-10T18:46:00.002+08:00

I'm happy that i really had alot of great frens.

Almost all of them who are close to me are extremely great frens.

Even when i'm feeling low, u'll be suprised some frens that hardly talk to you,

actually did something amazing that help you tide thru.

They dun just talk but showed goodness and sincerly give help.

Seriously, i'm touched.

A simple action but it truly touched me.

And made me realised i have really great frens.

Those who i can hold my heart and say they are my fren.

So in return i wanna be a better person for myself.

And to them.

I'm trying my best now to be happy.

And it does feel great to be happy and not negative.

Special thanks to Xt and YL.

They show me wads being sincere all about.

YL prob the best person i ever met.

She's not perfect but she's a perfect fren to me.

She's not so great but she gained many respect from many.

And i believe she will be one who can recieved blessings and happiness.

At least i felt tad from her.

And Xt, i'm truly touched by her and felt she's an angel.

An angel that was bestowed to me when i felt i was lousy.

And she in turn gave blessings to others.

They are no fake, they both share the same triats.

Tad is using their purest heart treating people with sincerity.

Tads wad i learnt from them and trying to be too.

I'm glad and happy that i met everyone till this point.

They made me strong and realised myself.

Loves.

Thanks XY for the prezzie!! though its like so long ago! LOL.

happy~

damn blogger! i can't upload pics!!

Its all about forgetting.

2009-02-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

OK...i really don't wanna go on my stupid rants anymore.

Cause i remember YL's words.

Tad is ultimatley its me thats more impt.

So why should i care about other ppl.

I should really think about myself more.

Self-cultivation is more impt, than bothering about wad others says.

Seriously i think i owe apologies to her. For wadever i've did to her.

No matter who started it or the purpose.

The thing is i did things that i shouldn't on my side.

No matter how many reasons and excuses i had.

Its still wrong.

So apologies is still needed.

And xueting was right.

Regardless who said sorry first doesn't matter.

Its the purpose of the apology.

I apologies becux i feel i did wrong afterall.

But doesn't meant i lost.

Its obvious that the other party was at wrong too.

But wadever it is, i dun have to expect anything in return nor apologies.

All i need to do is to forgive.

And stop being an angry person.

I really learned alot these days.

People who came up and talk to me after reading my post.

Xueting, Lifen, Liren and people whom supports me even they knew i'm at fault too.

They really knock senses out of me and taught me alot.

One doesn't have to have fancy words nor great ideals,

but having a great heart and personality is above all.

There are bound to be frictions between people.

Especially character bumps.

Afterall its how we handle it.

Well, afterall i'm not saint.

I still make mistakes afterall.

And i'm human enuff to feel affected and bothered.

Hurrays to me, i've walked out of the dark clouds.

*which i might never and keep blabbering and sulking on.*

ITS STILL A WORDY POST TODAY!

another useless battle

2009-02-05T19:32:00.002+08:00

I know whatever ppl have been saying bout me.

And seriously i need not explain about myself.

Ever realised i only treated you in tad way.

I can't helped it cux its been a long and tolerated anger.

And pls, i haven been telling tales about you..

Its wad i've felt, i said it out.

And if u were so bothered with wadever i've said,

why dun you clarify with them...

Instead of thinking i was talking behind your back.

Seriously they dun take sides. They know wads happenning,

And they did lecture me for wad i did too.

They are fair. I dun go around telling ppl.

Its they ask me.

get it striaght...

I'm not questioning about your actions nor am i criticising you actions.

Childish or mature so be it, the question had never revolved ard this topic.

Seriously wadever had caused this situation is becux of anger.

Its not only me. Stop dwelling on my side. And instead think about yourself.

Think of why you've gone wrong.

*I'm thinking too*

-sidetrack-

Another problem that occur.

Its my problem for not handling well.

I shouldn't put blames on others.

I should blame myself.

For not changing the storm that came.

I know not everyone is perfect.

I just dun care when i can't handle people i can't

I can't handle anger.

I can't handle myself.

Its me that i need to find.

I need to find my character.

Like catherine said, Build on it.

The search is on.

FIND KHOO FANG!

-side side track-

I admit, i confess,

i complained, i grumbled.

But these never really freed that anger.

I saw, i heard.

Things that were meant to be hidden from me.

They criticise, they laughed things all about me.

I cried, i wondered.

What did i do to deserves these.

Nothing came to answer my questions.

After some time,

He confessed to his wrongdoings.

but i already knew the truth.

I'm not angry nor am i depressed.

I smile, i forgive and i felt better.

How about the others?

I tried to dig the truth.

And nothing came out.

They are still hiding.

Maybe they forgot.

Though i din't get the answers,

I'm not angry.

Cux i now i know.

We are just ordinary humans.

We are afraid of truth, and we're afriad of telling the truth.

We just chose the easiest way out to release our anger,

dis-sactisfactory and irritations.

Niu year.

2009-02-03T21:10:00.005+08:00

I'm back...after some emo posts...

Shall post something nice...

having some fruitful weeks recently.

Ever since i returned to work, i'm more lively.

Only when i hang out with frens of cux...

Home to me is my emo nest. Not tad i want it. But its a natural thing.

I need to be out with ppl, having fun. And not at home, i'll be depressed.

Anyway, have been hanging out with 3 main grps.

First is Pri sch frens!!

Oh my!!! We've been meeting frequently..haha...quite unexpected.

And i had fun at wen hui's hse for niu year! Really. Happy!!!

Then with wanqing and kah hao!!
Except Zhiyao!!!
He seems busy recently...haven really met with him lor!!
Of cux including Kah hao's frens, boon and peiyi!~~
Have lots of fun with them!
Also celebrating niu year.!!
=)

Then with turf babies!
They are the 'always' lot cux we're always working mah!
So we caught a movie and had the Appreciation dinner recently..
I'm practically like a crazy child running about..
I had fun and am very happy!!
=) =)

But laughters and happiness dun last.
These few days i really enjoyed alot.
Too much, tad as if its holidays.
Once i hit sch, i can't lift my mood up.
I think i must been sulking almost all day.
Listless and showing attitude, tads prob wad u'll see me in sch.
SO AVOID THIS HORRBLE SPLIT CHARACTER CREATURE IN SCH!
I dun even have the mood to dress proper.
I go sch as if its my home. Yes yes...sloppy and auntie!
wadever it is,
I want to be free..
NO WAY! cux....exams coming, attachment coming, fun's ending!
=(

if you know, i've been showing attitude, you should really know why.
I've expressed myself and said a million times about you.
if you still dun get it, dun blame me for behaving that way.
And you should really watch your mouth.
I've been f****** tolerant for 1 and half yrs and i'm not gonna do tad anymore.
wadever u shoot off, pls think. You're no longer a 7yr old cute lil child.
You're a grown up, pls think wad are things you should say and wad you should not.
Being offensive to me is enough! i wun just sit and listen to you hurting me.
I tried to be nice to you. But the way you behave really pissed me off.
If its only me, i know its me. but if it happens to many ppl, i guess its you.
Many times i told you about talking rudely and offensive.
You just wun stop. You dun understand. i can't get things across.
You're just spoilt tads all. I admit i've stop trying towards you.
I shown wadever u've shown me. Its just my human reaction to protect myself.
Tads it. like i said, its like a mirror to show you exactly wad u done.
maybe ppl wun say, ppl wun do it. But i'm showing you. and hopefully u'll change to be a better person.
I really had enuff! i tried to avoid conflicts and it seems u wanted it. AND SO BE IT!
ARGGHHH~!

waiting

2009-02-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

BLOGGING SOON!!!!!!!!
I PROMISE!

Change me

2009-01-22T23:14:00.002+08:00

I know. There's no photos again.

And dun expect there'll be.

Depressing stuffs just keep knocking on me.

Wish i can shout out "STOP THAT F****ING TIME"

I'm freaking angry with myself.

Seriously i'm avoiding problems.

If i can hide, i really wanna do that.

Cut off from the world might be better.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

I kena dispute and its the worst time to get it.

I dunno what came over me.

i tried to cry out loud, maybe it might make me feel better.

But seems like crying is so numb to me now.

I hate that feeling when i can't resolved my problems to crying.

Though i'm feeling 'jerky', there are always ppl to lighten things up.

Thanks to some great frens.

Things just don't go MY way this time round.

All i can say is 'intuition' of a women is real scary.

TURN MY WORLD AROUND!

*worst still, my long-awaited holidays are gone like bubbles.*

Someone tell me.

2009-01-11T23:04:00.005+08:00

Seriously, looking at the crowd at Ngee Ann this 3 days, reminds me of 2 yrs ago.

That afternoon, i walked alone to the school bus stop.

Then i realised, i'm in poly for nearly 2 years.

2yrs ago i was struggling to get in.

And now, i still can't believe myself.

Times when i'm alone, i really feel like crying.

Part of me, i felt sadness.

But seriously i don't even know why.

Could be i'm missing grandpa?

Maybe. A little.

But most prob i think it must be fear.

The more fun i have, the more i fear.

This is an invisible fear.

Not a very direct fear like 'i'm scared of dark' that sort. NO.

Its the fear of uncertainty.

I'm actually greatly afraid of future.

I'm scared of growing up.

Scared that i'm not earning good enough.

Scared that one day, my parents will leave me.

Scared that i'll have lesser friends.

Scared that i have to live in stress.

Scared that i have no husband.

Scared that when i returned home, i'm alone.

Scared that i can't be as happy as i am now.

Maybe its these fears, that makes me wanna cry.

That makes me feel empty.

That makes me wonder whats life.

I have too much things that i wanna do.

But i'm lacking focus.

I often admire people, with great personality.

And me, i'm like the water, shaping into any characteristic,

when meeting different people.

I'm not a fixed person.

Rather i find myself, easily forgotten.

I'm actually like the fern,

Living off at ppl's comments.

I also want to have those times when i can cry loudly at my friends arms.

Calling to tell them, i need to talk.

But i can't...cux even i don't even know what i'm thinking.

I really hate quiet.

Hate lonliness,

Hate stress,

they caused me to be emo.

Only having fun makes me stop thinking.

Only laughing stops me from crying.

Only if i dump these feelings,

then i will be truly happy.

*If u fall and hurt yourself, would u stop running.

If you fail often, would you stop trying.

If u are betrayed by love, would u stop loving.

I need holidays.

Bored

2009-01-04T02:36:00.004+08:00

hi..........

bored i all i can say now..

so i'll just post 1 pic of me,

and...

Da ling! one of my lessy.

HA! no la..best fren.

just 1 cux when i have time, i'll do a collage.

Someone save me fron this sian-ness!

*btw, we purposely split our bangs to look geeky

New year! 2009~

2009-01-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

As i post this,

my eyes are like half open!

cux i tired like shit!

okay! not shit....is plain tired!

I seriously need my sleep!

my eyebags are going crazy..

LOL!

yesh yesh yesh..

2009..

all i want is HUAT HUAT HUAT!

tads all.

And this yr celebration is...

-_-

yesh, u saw my expression!

KILL IT!

To top it off....

HOLIDAYS ENDING!!!

nek nek!

NABEI! just saw a bedbug while blogging!

this family better do something or else i'll go crazy!

MUM DAD! there's still bedbug!

believe me!!!

DO SOMETHING!

2009 is so full of rants!
i'll make sure i'll blog with pics about christmas and new year 2009!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Sleep lar!

Sins-full!

2008-12-24T02:13:00.003+08:00

WAHHAHAHAH~~~

i went on a shopping spree today!

With 2 YL.

Yen and Yan LING~

First!

I can say bugis is real out of my list.

Shop so long......and i bought,

1 cupcorn!

So! orchard is still our choice!

I splurge like crazy today!

yeah yeah yeah..

I know i know.

slap me left right up dwn lar~

i should really save instead of spending de lor!!

But who cares!

HHAHAHAHAHHA

**Boat reach bridge head naturally will go striaght**

LOL!

I'll show a min fashion show next lar.

Show u peeps, the stuffs i bought~~~

anyway, those are just for casual wear.

AND i bought i super duper suitable skirt for new year!!

cute lar~

Save the best for the last.

Loves...

me..

money..

hopefully *him*

I want more holidays!!!!

and

i hate my new look!

Say bye to curls~(for now)

2008-12-23T00:37:00.005+08:00

Guess wad....

Yeah. am asking u to guess! Don't be lazy!

Alrites. i got my hair "beehoon-ed" now.

So say bye to my maggie!

Not only tad.

a daring approach! BANGS! yesh!

bangs!

LOOK~..i practically laughed non-stop looking at myself.

So how can i blame u all for laughing at that 'comical ' head of mine!

Praise the inventor of "giap giap"(tads how terry bas*t*** calls it)

The rebonding effect is like a temp savior to my maggie.

WAHAHHAH.........

Like how qings says, its AMAZING!

i'm still getting used to that dumb hair of mine.

SO should u!

Now i look like 3 person!

First, minting(my cousin)

second, My sister!!!

third, ju li jiejie!( my cousin)

HELL MAN!!!!!

and to make it worse, i look like sec sch student!

i wan to be original!

Jeremy's bday

2008-12-20T23:19:00.003+08:00

HAhaha..

Holidays are ADDICTIVE!!

Lovely.

Holidays is my sun, my stars, my everything lar!

I wish it was longer!!!

ANyway!!! i'm having too much fun,

that leads to negative assets!!!!!'

Know what! i have to rebond somemore.

Cux NEW YEAR IS COMING!~~~~~

Argh! why weren't my bday near new year.

Hees.

Oh ya! i'm proud to present my latest 'edit-ion'

Its jeremy's bday!~~~~

FUN DAY, laughters day~

More coming up~

Next up is more on jeremy's bday and my lovely xiao ling 21st bday!!!

meanwhile, enjoy your festive seasons with ur love ones!~

Wishing all "long holidays"~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Till then.

Flood in my house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-14T05:03:00.003+08:00

Now, just admit that u miss me.

U miss my blog entries.

ADMIT IT!

ha! i was trying to be more confident lar.

So! this is the time when i can shout till my lungs shout help,

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Com'on put up yours hands (make sure no B.O), and shout HOORAY~

WHEE~~~

I'm like over the moon lar! (literally =_=)

and thats like

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ON FRIDAY!

and today is ...

Sunday! Its 5 am lar! i'm still AWAKE!

Thinking what to do for ping's bday morrow!

its a big 1 leix...21st bday..

haix...headache!

Anyway, my house flooded on one of these days.

I CAN"T REMEMBER!

this damn prob has been going for dunno how many donkey years and not solved.

Damn the HDB that says its already taken care of!

whenever heavy rain and i meant really HEAVY!,

the water will sip in our the so called "full window",

like high tide!

Crazy sia! our computers and almost all electric fuses are near the window.

Just imagine if the water reached it................

wah kao! my family all become africans with my hair lor!

anyway thats not the point.

The point is,if we're not home.

and the water sip in...

the consequences will be..........

i couldn't think man.

Hiax....when will the government body stop lying to us!

Just fixed that damn prob! if not, changed a new house for us!

WHAHAHHHAHAH!

my final poem like finally!!!!

2008-12-09T16:13:00.002+08:00

This is my poem for IS class.

And it marks the end of speech and drama.

We acted out our final drama and it was a SUCCESS!~~

LOL..funny stuffs just happen.

Secret behind that door.

Light beaming from that room,
That's where the secret lies.
We're never allowed near that door.
But curiosity tempted me.

Emptied corridoor, Silent night.
Its time secret comes to light.
Little keyhole, playing scenes.
That's where sins comes in.

Scenes played by god
Sins commit by god.
Babies cried, pleading for life.
Laughing kronos ending its life.

The secret that is hidden,
Becomes a horror,
A horrible secret,
that burdened my life.

Morrow is EMD exam!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish me luck~

i'm thinking and missing.

When nothing is worth anything.

2008-12-01T23:27:00.003+08:00

I wanna hide.
Find a place where nobody can get me.
I wanna sleep.
Laze and dream in my bed for 1 whole week.
I wanna cry.
Let the tears of depressed run down my cheeks.
I just wanna run away.
From my laziness, my aloof, my responsibilty.
Problems are stacking,time is running.
I'm still not moving.

Hit me. I know i'm lazy.
Please leave me alone.
Let me emo.

When you realised,
the world does not contains you.
But you contains the world.
And that's when nothing is worth anything.

Its exams again.

Wth is wrong!

2008-11-28T18:06:00.003+08:00

Okay! This is getting on my nerves!

I dunno wads wrong with me!

Feeling giddy, stomach squeezing, and sometimes i feel like vomitting!

HEY! I"M NOT PREGNANT LAR!

No bf and flings! so dun anyhow anyhow ok!

Just after that heavy flu, i feel terrible!

Argh~ SAVE ME!!!!!!!

SOMEONE!

And exams is in 1-2weeks time!!!

Thats what u do when u slack in class, TOO much!

Time to stress again~

this month isn't gonna be good for me!

no money, health and studies!

cheer my life up!

=*(

Oh ya.

something to think about.

(grab from fren's blog)

Rojak post lar!

2008-11-24T14:12:00.007+08:00

HAHA! Do they look familiaR to you?!

YEAH! They are (*i forgotten their names*) haha...lions..opps

Anyway, its MADAGASCAR lar!

Obvious isn't it.

Its a late post anyway.

I watched the movie on 22.11.08.
With my sis and NICHOLAS!

damn! i missed him sOOoo much!

Plus dominic and trinity! but both are schooling so din't mange to bring them out.

They are my cuzzies lar.

We had sushis at Ichiban before watching the movie. And i'm so gonna bring nic out again.

Its happy seeing him enjoy himeself with the food!

And Madagascar is really a great show.

Povided you're young at heart!

Some famous sentences is still on my mind.

"Dear passengers, we've a good and bad news. Good news is we're landing soon. Bad news is We're CRASH LANDING!"

"They said they want maternity leave. The monkeys are all guys. Why maternity leave!"

Most funny parts comes from the pungiens. LOL.Damn cheeky fellows.

So watched it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And found this on the net. If you really LOVE Madagascar so much!

Here's a link for you. Its their official site. With games of course.

AND! You'll understands why thye lion had such great difficulty finding that damn zebra!

http://www.madagascar-themovie.com//teaser.html

With my sis of course! And it freaking cold there. So tad explains my freezing smile. LOL.

And this is wad you do, when someones just refused to take pics! JUST GRAB THEM! (Tads nic. He's very handsome ok, because he moved lar! now distorted face! hmpmH!!)

And now, get prepared! Cux my fugly pics are gonna scare the shit out of you!

Relax lar i haven even show, you shitted already! NB!

LOL.

Here goes.

A comparision lor.

The first day i went to herbalife, my face was fu**ing bloated!

With extreme double chin! Nek nek.

But thanks to herbalife's cello-lose, i manage to discharge the water out of my face!!

Though!, my face is still "chubby" right now, but i will gambate and lose that fatty face plus fatty body! Working hard towards my goal.(i picked the photos that are rather same, regardless angle and lighting and fringe. S

o its more fair to compare. =)

Some thoughts....

Even though many ppl close to me,

or who knew i took herbalife,

thinks VERY negative abt it,

and criticise it,

making me felt very uneasy and discouraged,

i'm still gonna take it.

Thats because i saw results.

And seriously, i don't feel like i'm tortured,

for not having KFC's or macdonalds or fattening food, even suppers.

To me, everyone has their own way of doing things.

You might have felt its wrong, or useless.

But to me, seeing is believing.

And regardless how much you're gonna say and "eeE-ing" abt it,

all i have to do is to ignore.

Losing weight and Fats isn't easy.

I know. And they are many ways.

Excercising might be the best that work out for you.

But it really doesn't worked so well on me.

And it needs a lot of courage to do things that ppl disapprove.

What i need now, is my own support.

I choose to ignore wadever expressions and criticisions of what i'm doing.

Cux you're not gonna bring me down... JIAYOU KHOOFANG~!

AND HELL with flu!!

i'm having a freaking bad flu.

Sneezing like a rap.

NON-stop!

HikHikHikhik(hehehehe, evil laughs,up to no good.)

Another un-glam pics!!

Step 1: Rub your nose like never before if they tempt you to! (itchy)

Step 2: Sneeze the irritating flu bug out!Close your eyes! You dun want your eyes to fall out. *(anyway, you can't open your eyes when u sneeze too. Don't believe? TRY IT!)

Step 3: Show a very ugly, pek chek, du lan and lang bei expression!! You'll never know you might win in "who got the worst flu expression" competition! Winner gets flu relieve tablets, 1year free supply!! LOL.

Nah. i was being lame. Cux so sianx becux of the bad damn FLU!

p.s** I know its very un-glam but! who look glamourous even having a very bad flu!

Ciao.Till next time.

I don't need you to bring me down.
My twin sis is appearing in Jan~ and i'll be hiding. hees =)

A new blog!

2008-11-21T23:51:00.005+08:00

HEYo! i've set a new blog!!!!

BUT HOLD!!!!!!

This blog is still going on just that this blog is blogging my personal stuffs!!!!

And that the new blog is something nice for everyone...

random stories!

Any stories you thought of or true stories, feel free to mail me and i'll post up.

I will update stories here and there if i'm free!~~

SO pls visit and comment.

And SUBMIT your stories too!~~

=) Enjoy~

http://semplice-stories.blogspot.com/

(oh ya...its under the link simple stories)

ANGERS!

2008-11-20T15:35:00.004+08:00

I TELL YOU I CAN SLAP HIM A HUNDRED THOASNDS AND MILLIONS TIMES!

AREN'T A LECTURER SUPPOSED TO TEACH! AND BE PATIENT WITH STUDENTS!

KNNCCB! I DIN'T WANT THESE VULGAR OUT OF MY MOUTH BUT TO DEAL WITH THIS AS****** HERE THATS THE ONLY CRUDE THING I CAN DO!

NOTHING ELSE!

WHAT DID HE SAY?

THE FIRST TIME I ADMIT ITS HALF MY FAULT!

THIS IS THE FUCKING 2ND TIME HE DID IT TO OUR CLASS!

HE ASKED ME WHY DID I WEAR SLIPPERS!?

I SAID I BOUGHT MY SHOE!

HE ASKED ME TO GET OUT!

KNN RIGHT!

I SAID NICELY TO HIM!

HE SHOUTED AT ME!

HELLO EXCUSE ME!

I'M HAD PARENTS TOO!

NOT BORNED TO LET YOU SHOUT AT ME!

THIS TIME ROUND!

I SWEAR WE DID NOTHING WRONG!

2 THINGS YOU'LL DAMN REGRET SAYING IT.

1)YOU SCOLD US JERKS RIGHT!

BECAUSE THE NOISE LEVEL IS HIGH?!

YOU SHOULD BLOODY HELL KNOW IF YOU ARE AN EDUCATOR IN SINGAPORE,

SUCH WORDS SHOULDN'T BE BULP OUT!

2)YOU SAID 'WE'LL SEE WHO HAVE THE LAST LAUGH, WHEN YOU TAKE BACK YOUR RESULTS.' OH WELL, ARE YOU THREATENING US YOU'LL FAIL US IF WE DISOBE YOU!

OH NOW I SEE.. NGEE ANN CAN JUST KICK STUDENTS WHENEVER THEY DON'T LIKE STUDENTS?! ARE YOU THE PRESIDENT OF THE SCHOOL! I PAID FOR MY FEES TOO! MIND YOU, THE GOVERNMENT IS BLODDY HELL PAYING HALF OF MY FEES TOO!

AND DON'T THINK I DIN'T HEARD YOU SCOLDING "BLOODY, READ THE LAB SHEET!'

HEY! YOU'RE THE LECTURER HERE AREN'T YOU, SO NOW WE CAN'T EVEN ASK QUESTIONS! NB!

YOU WAIT AND SEE!!!

YOU'RE REALLY GONNA EITHER SAY SORRY TO US OR GET PREPARED TO LEAVE NGEE ANN!!!

A monkey in my laptop!

2008-11-18T18:02:00.005+08:00

Heyo~!!

As usual, life's as busy!
And i'm still busy with my script in "Who killed JackDaniel's"

Gonna finish it today!!!

Anyway, there's a new friend in my laptop!

Say HI to pual franks!!

Aren't they cute!

just like me!

Relax lar!~

I was joking!!

But they are really cute.

At least they let me stay alert at class.

And i can't keep my fingers off them! LOL.

The texture's great, the pictures great and the silly look is great!

Look there's paul1 paul2 and paul3! LOL.

And a lollipop if u're feeling hungry! broken that is!

These cute little stickers i got it for only 2.50!

Watched magadasgar-escape to africa!

but pics not done yet.

SO WAIT PATIENTLY once again.

in any case take care of health and money!

CUX CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR ARE COMING REAL SOON!!!

=)...And remember to frequent my blog~~

Facts on BED BUGS!!

2008-11-12T02:06:00.009+08:00

Yes yes~!!
You might have been hearing me talking about bed bugs recently.
Please dun get bored and irritated by that.
I used to thought bed bugs only occurs on dirty people and...
IT DOESN"T!!!
Bed bugs do not infest because you're dirty!!
And i never thought that it will happen on me.
Its a problem that is really troublesome, and most imptly,
Its not easy to get rid of, so pay attention to what i have to say.
People! The things i'm gonna say and show will be very, truly gross. So please pardon me.
And if u think u can't take it, please bear with it, its knowledge that u need to know!

First thing first. Why do bed bugs occur.
They usually tend to occur due to these few reasons.

They cling on your shirt from another place.
They get in your house through cracks in the walls.
They can get into your house through pipes and wires too.
They could be brought back by your pets or sometimes birds.
They might be on stuffs that u picked them up on the streets or so.

Therefore! Don't pick stuffs outside to bring them home!

Next, How do bedbugs spread and where can you find them.

Usually,bed bugs spread through objects. Lets take for example, boxes, clothings and cardboards. They can hide in clothings and unknowingly, you could have spread them.And, you can find them hiding in wall cracks, cardboxes, furnitures, clothings, wood and especially like their name they hide in BED! especially bed linings!!!.....For all you know u might find their eggs too!!

Now the scariest part! How do you identify bed bugs!

They are small in size but can be seen by naked eye.They look differently in different stages.And they do not have wings and cannot fly.Immature bed bugs are light yellow in color unless they have recently fed on blood and then they are darker in the middle. After a recent feeding, you can almost see the red color of blood inside. As the blood ages, it darkens and a small quantity of undigested blood is excreted onto surfaces such as bed sheets, mattresses and on other surfaces. Adults are reddish brown and they also turn darker after a blood meal. Now i shall show you the pictures.
Beware if you see these creatures crawling around! they are truly BLOODSUCKERS!

And so How do you identify bed bug's bites and how they did it.

Okay. This is easy. You'll realised that you've been bitten, maybe for the first week,
You got 2 or 3 bites. Its like mosquitos bites, but its freaking itchy, worse than mosquitos bites.
And the bites would get worse if you had sensitive skin.Usually the infected area would've been scratched badly. Swelling might happen too...Bed bug's are mostly active at night. And they bite any exposed skin while you're sleeping.

The fact is, because they're able to sense the carbo dio we're giving out plus our heat that results them finding us, and biting us!!! Here's a pic on getting bitten. So if you got more than 3 bites, and it swells and itch like crazy plus its usually on legs, shoulders, toes and hands, You probably been bitten by bedbugs!( BTW, ITS not my hand/legs)
Why am i blogging on bed bugs is definitely becux i caught a bed bug while i'm using my lappy!

I totally freak out when i saw this damn creature crawling at my books! PLUS it is definitley an adult bed bug! So the fact that it appear in front of me, the only ending for it is DEATH!!!

I'm showing you the picture!...And i din't kill it. My bro did it..And while my sis is sleeping, i caught another one at her bed's lining.So imagine if you have to stay in a house that might be infested with Bedbugs!...i HATE this man!! i'm now like a crazy woman in my own house walking around inspecting with a tourch light to kill them!

And there's many more to be mentioned these 2 days.

But...shall blog morrow...I"M TIRED!!!!

Please people, have more concerns on your own hygiene.

And this bugs here is irritating.

Now i'm paranoid about being alone lor...

And i don't even dare to sleep ar!~

Grant me the power to destroy them all!!!

Everything is simple. Including love. Its humans that makes all things complicated.

Saturday Indochine hangout!

2008-11-10T22:27:00.004+08:00

When u saw that you should have thought i went there!

HA!
Its the day right after payday!
And so we decided to hangout on SAT after work!
We discuss HELL long what to eat lar!!!!
In the end we settle for 'Finger linkin good' Yeah, that's KFC!
After dinner we went to chill out~
Yes if u consider walking SOOOOOoo long before we settle for INDOCHINE!
(Talking bout that, we saw this trans dancing right in front of indochine at wisma!!
IT was definitely...................................=)...you can imagine for yourself!)
Anyway we went clarke quay's.

Upon entering, the well-decorated environment was great. Fish tanks, incense and the concept of 'ping ma yong'
It was very chinese yet classy.
BUT!
The prices there were really STEEP!!
Make sure you had a fat wallet thats either full of credit cards or CASH!
For the cheapest alchohol you can get is 220 and the mixer are not free!
A jug of coke you'll need 30bucks!
COME ON MAN! 30bucks for COKE!
thats like coke in gold!
We had no chioce and got blacklabel thats on promo.
Cux thats the only drink we can get free mixers!!!
=(

The same old thang' ,
We played card games and i was really sabotaged by the gang!
REVENGE!!! someday i'll.....lol..
i was kinda getting bloated and NOT DRUNK but tipsy(a lil tired and felt like sleeping)
I still like martell lar! LOL...
So credits goes to melvin and jeremy plus sam i guess,
for finishing the drinks! =)
And i got the container that contain our alchohol.
There are pictures!! HOORAy~~
but there wasn't one that has SAM and MEL!
=)

Oh ya! Mel also did some fortune telling for us.
IT was real accurate!
=)
The first fortune told was so true.
But i wonder the second one.......
HAHA! can't believe too much.
If not i'll be deluding myself.
LOL.
And jeremy almost got into a fight with a drunkard.
It was real scary to me.

The guy was drunk,
and came behind from me.
I quickly hide behind jeremy and that's how it got started.
He started shouting at jeremy.
At that second, i thought jeremy's gonna retalite already.
But lucky i pulled him away and the drunkard's fren pulled him away.
But i was real shocked!
Luckily there was jeremy!!
In any case, people should avoid getting drunk!

Met with kah too..
hmm..shall meet up soon to SING!
I WANT TO SING!!!

If there's love, please make it happen.

quick updates

2008-11-08T08:19:00.004+08:00

Good news~

Armani decides i'll be their cover girl this month,

for their par'fume(fragrance)

Yeah, u'll probably see this in japan and london.

=)*chuckles.

Anyway, this week is realy hectic.

Quizzes coming up just next week!!!!

And i HATE salleh. He's like a total cleanliness freak,

and he just couldn't speak well, he need to shout.

What an imbecile!

One day, i'll imprint my whole palm on his lappy screen!

And imagine the expression on his face!

LOL.

And i came across this picture in the net.

Isn't it great to have this in your company?

Holidays please come! and end my misery~

Yanling = FUN and a late present~

2008-11-05T00:54:00.003+08:00

I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY!

Yes! you saw that in red!

Its in fact the first day i skipped school lar!

Last Last tuesday i had MC thats why.

I knew i'll missed out alot from class.....

BUT i promISSSSSE!!!! i'll do all work that needs to be done.

In fact morrow i m gonna do that.

I love YANLING!!!!

Thats wad i wanna shout now!!

LOL...

I had so MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH fun at work today.
Though we were late and seperated, eventually we still got to sit with each other.

MUHAHAHa!! **evil grins**
Especially at night, we had so much laughs.

I guess i was too high!!

Anywhere is fun with Yanling!

=))))))))))))) ---------so many smileys~~

BUT!

i got a warning today for playing solitire 6mins to race!

And the 'police' is PRISCILLA!

I knew there's no escape.

So i signed my ever first warning!

lol.

Retard me. Its so drama when it happens.

anyways, its over.

AND AND AND!!
i recieved a real late gift.

Thanks for the effort.

i really like the present and felt so PS!!

Cux i dun expect a return ok!

BUT this BABA u must be wondering "WHO THE HELL"

haha..he's someone cute, CUter than my brother lar..NBNB..

lol....**PINCH PINCH** his face!

Actually its a nick i gave to this fren.

Sounds indian right....just pretends he is indian then!

lol...a nice fren i knew, like yanling.

You can see this 'indian' fren of mine doesn't have any artistic cells in him..LOL..

And the present they gave. Just imagine its a jacket and its simple but nice.

Lazy to take another picture of it when i accidently delete an obvious photo of the jacket.(dumb!)Anyway. Like it CUX I NEED JACKET!

=) THANKS!(guilty cux i only got them vouchers.) *shame on me!* ={

But still Many thanks~~

ARGH!!!! So many homework undone!!!

Next entry: Drama class and poems!!

Just some this and that.

2008-11-03T00:34:00.005+08:00

As you can see...

whenever i'm schooling which i meant,

school starts, studying and moving in a fast pace all that...

i hardly blog.

The defination for me, blogging means interesting Things that happens to me.

Apperently.........NONE is HAPPENING right now.

=_=

Monday again, now its drama class...

Yet we are having e-learning for today's class.

Its contridicting ya know,

i like the idea of not attending school, yet!

the hassle to go online and have lessons there simply is......

AcK......troublesome.

i still owe u ppl especially HUIWEN -san!

a poem.......i promise to blog soon.

Cux the ideas wun flow yet.(you might wanna help and pull that clog!)

Some random stuffs yo~

I realised that it wasn't really easy to deal with human-beings.

In fact the way i'm speaking seems like i'm not human!

HA!

I AM I AM~!! 100% gurantee.(Ok, maybe a mixed of alien character??)

back to what i was saying.

There are really many ppl out there.

And many that u will meet.

And ppl who u'll not meet.

Its not easy crossing one another paths,

and knowing each other, its even harder.

Become friends, here i'm talikng about quality good and close frens.

Thats even harder.

Couple?, thats like one in a million.

Its all that luck and fate that plays the part ya' know.

But what i'm saying is,

its really wasn't easy to be friends with ppl.

Not easy not to be affected by ppl and even worst, to get along with ppl.

All of us have different character.

We blend in differently too.

Like me, i admit, i'm a very contridicting person.

I get worked up easily, when ppl tends to irritate me.

And i haven't got a good temper that is.

i wouldn't admit i'm a very easy to get along person.

BUT!

I'm trying not be a "bad" person either.

There might be some saying you just have to live yourself.

Those are ppl who have character AND i do admire their guts and character.

But for me, my life partly revolve on ppl whom i do care for.

Especially my frens. I care on what they think about me,

i care how ppl judge me, criticise me, in fact u can say i'm a

SU LA(coward) becux i listen to myself too little and to others, too much.

I know pleasing ppl at times can be tiring, and annoying.

REALLY! i ADMIT.!

But if by doing that can please everyone, and

makes things turn out nice, why not?

Eventually, it'll make me feel good too.

Its good to be self-less sometimes.

But for us as humans, it is definitely not easy.

Cux our basic instinct is to protect ourselves.

Sometimes, i wished when i asked ppl ard me,

they had good impression on me,

good comments, praises and touching lines.

but it usually happened that, they din't know what to say bout me.

Its shows i din't had a strong character that stands out.

i want to be more than normal. Someone whom ppl remembers,

whom they like and was glad to be friends with.

These are efforts.

A simple logic yet not many can acheived.

In friendships,

Efforts are the ones that build the wall strong.

In family,

Efforts are the ones that keep the bond strong.

In love,

Efforts are the one that keep love burning.

And in life,

Efforts are the ones that make you feel u acheived something.

In fact its in everything.

**And i believe.......

We're a story of ourselves and every chapter is a thrill.

temptations is what we can't resists

2008-10-27T21:47:00.003+08:00

Happiness is definitely short-lived.

3 days of "holiday" is over!!!!

Like fallen from heaven.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**BOOOM***

And hell's like morrow.

I slept till 3pm today,

AND.....

i told myself i'll start studying by 4pm.

And now's 10pm.

GREAT!

i wasted my day.

Anyway..

my 3 days of "holiday" is good.

And now i'm missing holidays and hope it'll come real soon.

YEsh real soon like morrow!

Doesn't harm to Dream ok!

*anyway it is free*

-Saturday

Went work as normal,

and really couldn't stop humming as soon work starts.

SO went singing right after work!!!

And regretted it right after..........

It was an impulsive act anyway.

And i declare.............................

I"M BROKE!!

but it was fun singing, talking at starbucks,

And i had a great dinner.

CURSE my fats! lol.

I just love 'gu lu ruo'

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!!

Lets rate the food?

The wanton-6/10

The Kailan-7/10

The Jiang Cong Chicken-8/10

Hotplate Tofu-8/10

Fish soup-6/10

Finally my fav. 'Gu lu ruo'- 8/10

Food definitely make me a happy women!

But! not my body. =(

From Far east shopping level 5 (the place where u see the most smoke is where they are!..lol)

-Sunday

Becux of sat, slept at 4am,

Was really tired at work!

Shag and 'xu tuo' is all u see on my face that ytd!

And whats worse is we had badminton after work!!

They went running except me and chicken little.

I HATE RUNNING THATS WHY!

But i still had fun playing badminton

AND bahave like a crazy women.

SHOUTING and still shouting...

LOL...

But i was so letargic in the court.

Guess i was really tired.

BUT!

i still met kh and eunice after that.

For movie, we watched Musical high school.

Not as good as i expected.

3/5 stars!...

We walk to Je from batok..

thats quite a distance okays!

we walk and talk throughout the night.

then i felt i was sleep-walk

which = half sleepin but walking

SO we took cabby home.

KH was talking but i was half sleeping..

Seriously, i think i was blabbering ytd in the cab.

I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER what i said and heard!!

LOL...

anyway, morrow sure gonna be a long day for me!

CUx i've yet complete my revision and homework.

readers, bless me..

Kill my laziness pls!

And HOLIDAYS PLS COME!

-i know its a boring post today but i'm tired so forgive me yeah..=)

boon boon bday! finally~~

2008-10-21T23:31:00.004+08:00

Its like 5 days since Boon's bday!~

and qing sent me the pics~~!!!
WEehee~~!!!

And so we went holland V to chill out,

and had sushi tei..

ANd freaking hell ya!

the salmon is so...

YUMMY!!..MmmM Mmm...

After that we went to starbucks.

I bought candles that relights and sOOooo...

After that, we played MATH dice!!

we did forfeits and Guoyuan kena the most!!!!

as usual we do stupid stuffs..

Like jumpin frog jumps in starbucks,

smelling armpits..And so much more!
LOL..had a relaxed day that day..

hope to have more~~

she can't believe they relights for the 5th time~!

next: chicken's little bday

second poetry class!!!

2008-10-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

Hey hey~

Its Monday again, so its poetry class again!!

So students, today class is about analyzing a poem.

And after analyzing the poem, we are suppose to write a poem,

And to review it, and change for the better!!

And thats our last poetry class!

Cux......

next week is DRAMA class~~~

lol.."i'm a drama queen"-that's my forte.

Nah..JOKING!!

Anyway, we were shown a painting from GOYA(painter)

And the painting is about, Kronos, the greek god that devour its child.

The following picture might cause some discomfort so...

ppl who have weak hearts and timid souls....just look at it for 3secs ok,

u dun wanna get NIGHTMARES!!!!

Introductions: Kronos(the person in the painting) is a greek god, after hearing a prophecy that his child will might overthrow him, he ate his own child.

And i went online to check a few details and so here it is!

My second poem,

Kronos ain't no father but a devil

Titan god of time and ages,

mighty ruler of the cosmos,

God's your name,

that should be loving,

God's your title,

that should be comforting.

Your eyes full of fears,

yet not fears of devouring,

any other but your child.

The fear you've shown,

was prophecy of overthrown,

any other but your child.

Your mighty hands,

not stroking and cuddling

your newly born,

but tearing and breaking

devouring and savouring

your blood and flesh.

The splash and crunch,

covered the cries of your child,

and smeared your name,

Kronos, the first greek god,

you're not a father nor a god,

you're the devil, Saturn's patron.

i know, i'm suppose to blog about boon's bday.

But no photos recieved yet.

And the same goes 'chicken little' bday too.

So...just wait..

next entry: uncertain.

*SRL camera totally blows my mind!

Hell BUGS!!!!!!!Stop my itch!!!

Just for laughs

2008-10-18T21:12:00.004+08:00

While waiting for qing to send me pics to blog,

shall blog on something interesting to share with u guys.

have u been feeling mouldy recently,

opps, i meant MOODY~

LOL!

And wanting to have some laughs,

But couldn't get the right joke to even twitch your corners of your mouth?

Here's FANG's remedy for laughs!!!

take it at least once a day for good laughs!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHZEuxRo1TQ&feature=related

The fact is....

I was sleeping while waiting for classes,

when i heard laughters from Jeeva and jiahui,

NON-STOP!!!

so i forgo my sleep

and watched whats so funny that can disturb my sleep!

And its was YOUTUBE!

they were watching a video called "whose line is it anyway"

So i wonder whats so funny.

And......(after 1min)

I LAUGH SO LOUD IN THE LIBRARY!!!

LOL..

its a video about sound effects,

and these 2 comedians had good reflexes,

that made the whole act damn funny!

i was hooked!

so get prepared to be hook too~~

Bored, Boring, Boredoms!

Next entry-boon's simple bday in starbucks.

*Pls appear before i'm 21*

Self expression through Drama & Poetry

2008-10-16T10:08:00.004+08:00

Had our first lesson on MONDAY.
We had IS, and what i choose was....
Drama and poetry!
Hey! dun "wtf" at home ok!
I had no choice....

Okays, first time in my poly life,
we wrote poems, with what we observed..
I wrote 3 LAME poems end of the day...
One of it, Jas and mel couldn't stop laughing.
Even my rubbish gang, they say it was SO WRONG.
So LAUGH at my poem.

Its called- A candy's confession.

Wearing my colourful dress,
Coated with shimmering diamonds,
Waiting for your pairs of hands to pick me.

Feel me, touch me,
I'm hard and rough like a rock.
Take me, bite me,
I'm soft and smooth just like beancurds.
Swallow me, Digest me,
And thats the end of me.

yeah...lame rite.
And VERY wrong..
i think the last sentence was no good..
So open for comments and suggestions for my last sentence!!!
=)
yeah i know u're laughing.

Next entry- RAndom~

I'm on the newspaper!!

2008-10-14T22:28:00.005+08:00

Heys guys!!

Remember the Mcflurry pics?!!!

AHAHAHA...

I WON!!

I got 50dollars mac voucher~~~~

woohoo...

and spent 20 bucks on macs breakfast during,

Boon boon's b'day~~

Below is my glorious moment!!

And there u saw weiboon!!!

Cute little face there yeh?

HAHA...

and MY VOUCHERS!!!!

wonder those secondary school students will recognise me?

LOL...

Next entry~

"MY FIRST POETRY CLASS"-A candy's confession (LOL)

Part2 birthday over!

2008-10-12T01:09:00.009+08:00

And its so long since my bday is over~

Changed a new blogskin too~!!

Thanks for the wonderful ppl who make my birthday so great this year.

And its another year to 21~....=(

My 3 wishes, multiplied to 9 wishes!!!

Cux i had 3 cakes this year, and so 9 wishes.

wAhahaha~~but my wishes last year din't came true...

so i really really wish all my wishes came true this year.

Thanks wq for the card that says 'hope u find a bf soon'...Hees.

*The presents*

The Tee that yap gave~

Optical mouse that Shuyi gave~~

The watch that matthew gave, and thanks for the kbox treat that vincient/matthew gave.

The lovely qing that gave me "at least an agnes B"...really touched and thanks!!..**crying liaox..lol

-a beautiful shot by me~~

The bear and necklace that yq gave, she bought it in genting!!~~

Sunflower from gina, a temp gift~ lol!

The suprised necklace from guess~given by the rubbish gang!>>>>

Namely:

Weiboon & Peipei (pro toilet cleaners)

Jerome(pro ziap collector)

Jeric & Guo yuan (the rubbish throwers)

I'm really happy with my presents really, and thanks ppl for making it so well...

Next up!

Me on NEWSPAPER!!!!

Happy waiting~~~~

=))

Some here and there.

2008-10-02T00:28:00.008+08:00

Heya~~

Missed my entries?...(thicked skinned!!)
I'm blogging with my bad health constitution okays!

orite lets start with 30th!

*D&D

It was actually Turfclub mini gang's D&D~

And all of us spent some time dolling up..

Just that i dun have any fashion sense so i wore something simple...
And of course felt a lil out of place cux never attended such events before.

The whole event was a lil bumpy, cux different age groups,

So have diff wants and funs.

I guess the adults was a lil angry with us for not being very enthus.

But it still turns out well~

*aftermath

Then after that, we decided not to let the night be wasted and so we went...

ST.JAMES!!

My FIRST ever clubbing!!!

HAHHA...yeah i know i'm being moutain auntie(hokkien translate-shua gu)

Actually the feeling's not that bad i quite of like it..

We started to move to the beat though i know i dance like shit cux i can't co-ordinate.

But we just wanna have fun...........till..............

we drank martell!!!

i drank "on the rock"

which is 'nic'(i guess) plus ice?

i like martell seriously, but i'm a bad drinker!!

I drank 1/4 of the cup size. And chill my friends!

I wasn't drunk...Not that easy lar!

Just that alcohol is like lullaby to me..

So not only me, every1 else was tired, and we returned home.

And shit! i left my atm card with joyce!

*Suprised present

I love the suprise present that the turf babies gave.

seriously i love them to lots!

i really din't expect a present from them..

And was so shocked and touched that i cried.

ANd couldn't stop when they looked at me..

really touched, really really!........and really ,i love the present!

=)**Loves!!!Anything bling bling mAkes me go WOW~

*1st Oct CHildren's day!

Happy childrens' day to all.

Including adults,(we were once childrens..)

And happy birthday to EVON jiejie!!

LOL..

and count down to my bday 1 day!

Working at farrer park is a horror!

Maybe becux i was drenched in the rain ytd,
i got a flu, and worst i sat at a place where dust and hair are lying ard!!!

I sneeze and used 6packets of tissues.

And so............................

*2nd oct-My bday!

I was SICK!

BAD FLU + Itchy rashes at my neck + ladies monthly fren!

Thats the worst present u could get for your bday ok!

And so any plans made for that day was CANCELLED!!

But thanks for all the bday msgs, get well msgs!

i really appreciate all that did that!

so i was stuck at home recuperating, spending my rest of my bday at home, resting!

Till i recieve something cute from hw and sy,

a little trick and a big thought from them...

erm...at 12.24a.m...lol

Sweet~..=)

Shall cont'd OCT3 cux great things ain't just ending like that~!And happy birthday to myself!Thanks mom for having me here,and "xin ku ni le" for the day that u gave birth to me,and the subsequents diapers days,and the subsequents crying days,and the troubles and arguments,Thanks mummy, for the mths of pregnancy, for the pain, for the love and care, and your egg.and thanks daddy for the care, loves and sperm.

The day i was destined to be Khoo Fang.

*wishes to get agnes B black shiny sufaced-with a star shape wallet:$375

toughskin 'salad' shiny black sioft texture wallet:$80

Muflurry contest!

2008-09-21T22:58:00.004+08:00

Whhoohhoo....
Haven't been blogging great stuffs lately.
Alrights, and here's one interesting thing today!
Macdonalds had their new mcflurry..
back by popular demand it says!
Introducing, the Mudpie mcflurry! And the strawberry cookieS!
They are holding a contest. Just send in the a pic of u and ur mcflurry,
showing that the mcflurry is irresistable!!!!
And you'll find urself walking away with a 50dollar voucher from MACs!!
HAHAHAH....Here i come mcspic-ies and mcwings!!!
Those were my pics...so start thinking and snap it!
*oh ya, the mcflurry's not tad great anyway,its actually made up of orea mcflurry adding either the chocolate/strawberry topping from the sundaes..
so.....if u are one that cannot make up your mind, sundaes or mcflurry, you can take their new mcflurry!! satisfying both ur desires!
heees..remember the pic!
=)

Happy moments

2008-09-15T09:57:00.004+08:00

Sleeping soundly till i received gary's msg and it says,
"How's your results?"
i woke up,lying on my bed with such good weather, worrying for myself,
i'm afraid my maths din't pass....
i started telling myself i will pass i will pass!!
And guess wad
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>

I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whoohoo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I got a D for maths,
and a B for DEC!!!!
despite that i failed the common test, that shows that my final exam i must have scored well!
PDA and PLD, i got a B...i should have hand in my last presentation for PLD, so i could get an A!
and pass my I and E, got C+ for PCN...expected!
no amount of words can describe my joy now!
though my gpa is only 2.5, but i'm happy that i cleared maths!!
REALLY...and weilun and Chee chai passed maths too!~~
whee!!
today is a GREAT DAY!!
=)

2nd day with bad movie

2008-09-09T02:51:00.005+08:00

Caught up with boon and py, plus wq as well..

Watched a movie and for me its the 2nd day that i watched a movie,

Ytd was my sassy girl, today it was Bad habits.

Both movie sucks....

Omg..i can't believe Vanessa is asking me to watch movie morrow!!!

Oh ya!...this is an art film....not ARTISTIC enuff, pls dun watch it.

p.s( unless u like sex scenes!.)

And i bought a carbonated water for 2.70 today!

HA!..i'm not dumb ok, i ask for a new drink of cux!

Then after the movie, we played ard with Garfield, Stich, nemo and CHICKEN LITTLE.

ANd CL wasn't really LITTLE!

His head was heavy and we spent some Bull strength handling him okay!

LOL..

and i played king with Garf's crown.haha..

like they say "No big heads dun wear big hats!"

Well....in this case its CROWNS!..=)

After which we went off, and i followed qing to Vivo, i shopped while waiting,
And got 1 tee and short pants. PLus we each got a tee from OP, cheap cheap, 20 bucks.
lazy to take pics so words will do yeah.
We went over to clarke quay and it rained!!
lol...we waited and stroll ard and found out some good places to chill!!!~
whee...now just waiting for our chance!!

When the rain went away we walked to the bustop.
And that moment thoughts were running through my mind.
"Friends are essentials and love is??..."
*i defintely need more than that!! *
=(

Its those AGAINS again...

2008-09-08T00:13:00.004+08:00

Finally, an update.

Seriously...i'm dead late for all my entries!

1st) i'm suppose to be uploading EDITED versions of pics. HW's bday, S'pore flyers, blah blah..

2nd) update on working at comex PLUS going to spore flyer.

3rd) THESE ARE ALL NOT DONE! COol mang...=(

SOOooooOOOoo...

i decide to forgo those and update them when i'm bored. Heees.*forgivness is the best gift*

OoOKays!
rememeber this?My sassy girl!! Great show yar!

And i din't watch it at the cinema that time.

Now i got to watch MY SASSY GIRL Movie(American re-make)

IT WAS HORRIBLE!

1 star is all i can give!

i'm a person easy with movies, but this show really make me feel,

no standards, no proper plot, no effects.

I almost fell asleep & that how bad i felt the movie was!

aigooo(korean aiyo)!!! my 8 dollars~~

And i checked that it was screening on DVDs in america and showing on big screens in Spore!

Makes me boil!!~~!!!!~~~!!!

And i'm going shopping morrow~~

Can't wait to shop!

Geeees~

*red red go away

small update

2008-08-28T01:24:00.003+08:00

Nearing to 1 week since holiday~
And guess wad..I'm loving it!!!
A quick sum up of what i've been doing.

-Celebration of yap's bday.
not a good one..
felt guilty over it too...
Some hiccups here and there.
Dinner at manhanttan(dunno wrong spelling not!).

And happy day with time spent with the girls!
Pics updated soon.

-Went benson's hse to mahjong.
Versus 3 guys and guess what!
I WON!!!!
30 bucks is my reward for slogging hard at the MJ table~!
Hees...

-Then rushed down to chalat.
Invited by lifen, they having class chalat.
Invited Me,jas,cryst & jing.
Too bad jing and jas couldn't make it..
It was damn fun~
Had drinks and games.
Saw mayson's cute side of gaying
and donovan's impatience when they're almost drunk!
Had ghostly talks too..
IN simple words...
FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wished there're more.
AND THIS IS WHAT I CALLED CHALAT!
*shall update more morrow with nicely done pics~

Loves holidays.

ANgry and irritated

2008-08-23T21:23:00.003+08:00

Today marks the second day of my holidays.
And it sucks!
Went to work..i am very chirpy today.
Yet i still got suspendsion!
Not entirely my fault.
Cux i really heard it that way!
damn it...
not working for 4 days= wasting 200 plus~
now i'm considering working at IT show.
To earn back what i din't work for this 4days!
Most prob i will..=(

Saw a blog recently direct linked from kenji's blog..
Its about cannibal....
Btw it means eating human meat.
GROSS by the sound of it..
The worst is if u see what the muderer himself wrote...
he describe it so vividly that it seems like u're in the scene...
and there's pictures too...
PLS if u have weak heart....dun strain urself ya..
http://youcapturedme.blogspot.com/2008/06/excerpt-from-in-fog-sagawas-post.html

BAADDDD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!